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Life is unfair. starve yourself or get over it

A4a reminder

An E.D. (any disorder, for the matter), doesn't have one fixed shape or form. Not everyone struggling with it is extremely thin with their ribs visible. Check up on your friends and if you're the one struggling, you're still valid, just as you are.

I want to be able to hang out with my friends and not feel self concious abt my rolls

I want to be able to look at an overweight person and feel relieved that I don't relate to them and wonder how it can get so bad.

while I'm not necessarily heavy on the thigh gap, I'm dying to have thin legs. I need my bones to show.

I need to starve myself and lose sm weight in a short time that my parnets get severly concerned

I went some where w my bf yesterday and he took a pic of me while i wasn't paying attention. That double chin was HORRID.

Fasting is addicting once you get into it

I can't wait to be done w my exams so i can starve myself properly again

What I find stupid is the amount of calories in sugar. While you can justify the amount of calories in a lot of foods (like oil) in one way or another, you can't really do that with sugar. It doesn't really have something nutritional in it like f.e. olive oil would. It's just making you fat for no reason.

Now remember, sugar is your worst enemy

25 things to do instead of binging

Cleaning your room

Arranging your wardrobe

Look at outfit inspos on Pinterest

Scroll through social media

Call a friend

Play a video game

Spend some time with your pet

Talk with your parents or siblings

Clear your phone gallery

Do one of those BuzzFeed quizzes

Wash your shoes

Go for a walk

Make a random wishlist

Study for school

Read a book

Drink water

Hang out with s friend

Take a nap

Draw something

Try origami

Watch a YouTube video

Watch a movie or series you've been post poning

Make a list of places you want to visit

Look online for decorations for your room

Make a new playlist

Not everyone will understand the relationship between a girl and seeing her ribs

Currently in exam season so i allow myself to eat more (i fear that getting a degree is more important than starving atm), but I'm still teaching myself to only eat when hungry and avoid snacking too much, esp on sugars. Since my fasts, my hunger has gone down and i feel less the need to eat as often. At least snacking, anyways. Like, yeah, i crave food but i have less the feeling like i'm hungry and NEED it, just simpky the idea of it that i can usually just get over.

Footage of my brain (2025, colorised):

Your waist is huge.

Look at that.

Ew…

People may like you but they will never truly accept you if you look like that.

DPDR core

Feeling like you're stuck in your body/brain

Feeling like this is some sort of dream you can't wake up from

Everything is overstimulating

Agoraphobia

Trouble sleeping

Not being able to function because you're so distracted by the feeling that nothing exists

"Am I really me? Is this body me?"

Overly anxious

Panic attacks

People thinking it's a funny quirky thing, not knowing it consumes every bit of you

using your phone or laptop as a distraction from existing

Feeling numb

Struggling with eye contact

Being restless in crowded places

Safe foods

Rants w Arcane | pt. 2

I know this isn't my usual content, my I just wanted to get it off my chest. Maybe it brings some comfort to ppl in similar situations.

My education is very important to me. My main form of validation is academic, and while I wasn't a top student in high school, I was happy I graduated and found it a flex that I finished high school in a different country, in a different language. Now I'm an university that ranks top worldwide. I knew it wouldn't be easy, but I had failed all my exams in january. Looking back, my study methods were just really not right and that's why I didn't do well. It obviously took a toll on how I viewed myself. Thus, the past semester, I've been in a constant toxic cycle of putting particularly high expecations of what I should do/what I should achieve by overworking myself, attending all my classes and student society (already 9 hours in a day) and studying an extra 4 hours in between and working out whenever I could. On top of that, I had fueled my £d as much as I could, pushing myself to get worse.

Dealing with the pressure of school, an £d, a relationship and going home every weekend where my relationship with my parents isn't the best obviously took its toll on me. After about 4 to 5 months of that, it seems like my brain finally is giving up. My anxiety is getting bad again and I might need meds again, if I don't get better. I don't want to bother people with it, but it is also something I cannot just keep hidden. I hope that things will get better soon and I should take better care of myself.

For anyone else in a similar situation, know you're not alone and you deserve to take care of yourself. It's ok to step on your pride and do things that'll help you feel better.

I avoided binging this evening, I'm so happy w myself.

Turns out that having a bigger lunch (trust, it was big.) that makes you full really helps.

I've been on and off fasting for 12 to 24 hours the past week and a half or so and low key, it's a vibe. I'm then more tolerant of what I eat, esp when I have one meal a day. My exams are starting on monday, so I might eat a bit more through the day (like, more than 1 meal).

As much as I love ana, I value my education more than anything.

Stop trying to cheat your way out of a fast. The weight won't come off by itself

Maybe I'm just balls deep into my £d but I don't get the hype of having 3 meals a day. I understand ppl who have it because they legit need it to function (esp while you're alr struggling w an £d and splitting your calories throughout the day works best for you), and ppl w/ a b.e.d. Finding comfort in food is a thing and I get it.

But otherwise... why are ppl so obsessed w/ eating? You don't constantly need to shove food in your mouth. You can just go on w/ your day, do whatever you have to do and eventually eat when you're actually, properly hungry.

My favourite part abt fasting is sleeping. Not in a weird way but I love having dinner, doing whatever for a few hours, going to bed and then seeing I'm at like 12 to 14 hours while still feeling good and not hungry.

For those of you who use tiktok, do y'all know those videos of 'what I eat in a day'? Yeah, abt that. While I'm not a hater towards anyone in particular, I have a general thing where I'm wondering why ppl eat so much. Not necessarily their main meals (who can honestly look amazing and nutritious), but why do they need to eat every 2-3 hours? Why do ppl need to have breakfast at f.e. 8, have a snack at 9, another one at 11, then lunch at 12, another snack at like 3, dinner, and another snack before bed?

You don't rlly need all that in a day.

REAL, I randomly stop studying just to scroll on tumblr and look through the tags. I also had a phase at some pointwhere I'd be like "it's ok to neglect my studies for a bit. I can't be stupid AND ugly."

does anyone else’s ED severely impact their academics? and not just in an “@na brain” way?

i mean instead of studying or doing online assignments i’m obsessively consuming media related to weight loss/food/dieting.

i feel guilty when i sit down to study or do schoolwork because “i could be burning calories exercising right now.”

The feeling after fasting for 16 to 24 hours >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

Maybe I would've been skinny by now if I wasn"t autistic as shit and acc gaf abt what my mom was saying abt me

“starving yourself won’t make you happy”

sorry a girl just wants to wear her slutty little top and shorts