A4a Reminder

I'm not saying that ppl who are naturally skinny don't have their own struggles, but you can't convince me that you don't have it easier than ppl with slower metabolisms.

I avoided binging this evening, I'm so happy w myself.

Turns out that having a bigger lunch (trust, it was big.) that makes you full really helps.

what's the big deal with eating anyways. It's tasy, yeah, but why should my life revolve around it

Would I prefer to satisfy a thirty minute craving or have the body I’ve craved for a lifetime ?

Not to sound like a pick me but I don't like ppl I know irl reminding me of an e.d. only my boyfriend and best friend know abt it and while my friend doesn't really mention it, my boyfriend used to. He'd bring up calories and shit when picking what to have for dinner and it's just like, shut up?? I already obsess over it and it's genuinely draining me, it's not a quirky thing to lose weight and be healthy. Don't remind me even more.

How do I fast?

I made a few post abt me fasting lately, and I thought I'd share how I do it. I typically start my fast after dinner, which is usually between 6 and 8 PM. I do it ibecause I don't feel hungry for the rest of the evening and just need to resist having snacks or such. I then go to bed, and wake up between 7 and 9 AM. That already brings me 12 hours further, which imo is a win.

I'm not really a breakfast person, so it's easy for me to just go on abt my day and get to about 14 to 15 hours. At around that mark, it is already noon and I start feeling hungry, so I have a coffee or a sugar free energy drink/soda. As the afternoon passes, it can become more tempting to buy food, but it helps to do my fast during days in which I have around 6 hours of classes, Between 8 and 4. I then don't have access to food as i please, and it's easier to post pone. When I get home, I can focus on just cleaning my room, taking a shower and getting my desk ready to study.

When it's time for me to break my fast, I'm not really specific with what I eat. I have a normal meal, anything between 500 and 900 cals. I still obv try to op for something nutritious with veggies and go for water or sugar free drinks. Throughout the day, I also do my best to get my steps in. It's worth noting here that I don't try to push myself, if I feel unwell. You shouldn't, either.

If there's any advice I'd be able to give next to this, if you're also getting used to fasts, is to start with aiming for 12 hours, then 14 to 16 and see how your body reacts as you go. Also see what works for you best, regarding on how you start your fast.

my bf knows i'm tring to lose weight and shi and he told me last night something like "yeah and when you're skinny..." abt cuddling or so

The feeling after fasting for more than 12 hours >>

REAL, I randomly stop studying just to scroll on tumblr and look through the tags. I also had a phase at some pointwhere I'd be like "it's ok to neglect my studies for a bit. I can't be stupid AND ugly."

does anyone else’s ED severely impact their academics? and not just in an “@na brain” way?

i mean instead of studying or doing online assignments i’m obsessively consuming media related to weight loss/food/dieting.

i feel guilty when i sit down to study or do schoolwork because “i could be burning calories exercising right now.”

Things I'm looking forward to

Thin arms

Thin thighs

Smaller hips where you can feel my bones better instead of fat

Smaller belly

Slimmer face

Looking more elegant

Looking good in jeans