I Want To Be Able To Hang Out With My Friends And Not Feel Self Concious Abt My Rolls

I need to starve myself and lose sm weight in a short time that my parnets get severly concerned

I was pissing my bf off for the giggles, and he was like "yk I'm gonna go get lunch later, right? What if I eat your food before I get home."

He was obviously joking, but he doesn't know that I acc wouldn't mind lmao. An excuse to skip the meal

I avoided binging this evening, I'm so happy w myself.

Turns out that having a bigger lunch (trust, it was big.) that makes you full really helps.

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I just did my 24 hour fast yesterday and it was so good :0 What works for me is to have dinner nad then wait until dinner the next day because then I already sleep for a good chunk of it and am not rlly a breakfast person. Thus, I easily get to 12 to 14 hours. Then I just went to my classes and stuff and managed to get to 7 PM

the fun part in an £d and being overweight is that I can lose somebody's entire weight and still be fine. People would congratulate me.

what's y'alls cal limit/restriction?

Mine is 1K, although 1.1K is typically also ok, since I burn some calories through the day bcs of my walking

Not everyone will understand the relationship between a girl and seeing her ribs

Fasting is addicting once you get into it

Rants w Arcane | pt. 2

I know this isn't my usual content, my I just wanted to get it off my chest. Maybe it brings some comfort to ppl in similar situations.

My education is very important to me. My main form of validation is academic, and while I wasn't a top student in high school, I was happy I graduated and found it a flex that I finished high school in a different country, in a different language. Now I'm an university that ranks top worldwide. I knew it wouldn't be easy, but I had failed all my exams in january. Looking back, my study methods were just really not right and that's why I didn't do well. It obviously took a toll on how I viewed myself. Thus, the past semester, I've been in a constant toxic cycle of putting particularly high expecations of what I should do/what I should achieve by overworking myself, attending all my classes and student society (already 9 hours in a day) and studying an extra 4 hours in between and working out whenever I could. On top of that, I had fueled my £d as much as I could, pushing myself to get worse.

Dealing with the pressure of school, an £d, a relationship and going home every weekend where my relationship with my parents isn't the best obviously took its toll on me. After about 4 to 5 months of that, it seems like my brain finally is giving up. My anxiety is getting bad again and I might need meds again, if I don't get better. I don't want to bother people with it, but it is also something I cannot just keep hidden. I hope that things will get better soon and I should take better care of myself.

For anyone else in a similar situation, know you're not alone and you deserve to take care of yourself. It's ok to step on your pride and do things that'll help you feel better.