the calories aren't worth it
I hate myself for struggling w/ a b.e.d. for so long and not trying to get better out of stubbornness
For those of you who use tiktok, do y'all know those videos of 'what I eat in a day'? Yeah, abt that. While I'm not a hater towards anyone in particular, I have a general thing where I'm wondering why ppl eat so much. Not necessarily their main meals (who can honestly look amazing and nutritious), but why do they need to eat every 2-3 hours? Why do ppl need to have breakfast at f.e. 8, have a snack at 9, another one at 11, then lunch at 12, another snack at like 3, dinner, and another snack before bed?
You don't rlly need all that in a day.
I'm gonna vomit, I'm seeing my friend next friday and she can't see me so fat
I went some where w my bf yesterday and he took a pic of me while i wasn't paying attention. That double chin was HORRID.
my bf knows i'm tring to lose weight and shi and he told me last night something like "yeah and when you're skinny..." abt cuddling or so
"on today's episode of how fucked up is fucked up"
I wanna become so deep in the £d rabbithole that I can't function properly and people notice my weight loss
I literally stopped going to therapy in like, november, because I opened up to my therapist abt my relationship with food (it was starting to get bad), and she just pulled a "but food is good for you 🥺". Literally 5 to 10 mins later, it was the end of our session and she went "ok, do you want to book another appt, or would you rather contact me when you have something going on?"
I got so pissed by it that I haven't talked to her since. It wasn't even that but like another time when i mentioned i suspect being autistic, she just went "no, you can't be autistic. I think you're just a sensible girl who got traumatised."
Mf.
So I just didn't contact her since and decided I'll just help myself.
too bad I hate throwing up and i'm too much of a pussy to do it to myself
I have a friend who's (naturally?) really skinny and she was telling me abt how she sometimes gets bruises from resting on wooden/metal chairs. I WISH I had that struggle.
Maybe I won't be skinny as a stick this summer, but I sure will be thinner by my birthday. Watch me lose 30kg by then.