Too Bad I Hate Throwing Up And I'm Too Much Of A Pussy To Do It To Myself

tb to my teen years when i had a b.e.d. and was so stubborn to not let my mom see that her words regarding my body/weight affected me that I didn't try to lose weight

i need to be under 50kg

i need to be under 50kg

i need to be under 50kg

i need to be under 50kg

i need to be under 50kg

i need to be under 50kg

I'm not saying that ppl who are naturally skinny don't have their own struggles, but you can't convince me that you don't have it easier than ppl with slower metabolisms.

DPDR core

Feeling like you're stuck in your body/brain

Feeling like this is some sort of dream you can't wake up from

Everything is overstimulating

Agoraphobia

Trouble sleeping

Not being able to function because you're so distracted by the feeling that nothing exists

"Am I really me? Is this body me?"

Overly anxious

Panic attacks

People thinking it's a funny quirky thing, not knowing it consumes every bit of you

using your phone or laptop as a distraction from existing

Feeling numb

Struggling with eye contact

Being restless in crowded places

I wanna feel the bones in my body

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I want to get so thin and sickly looking that my mom stops enabling but makes me eat.

gang i used an app and if i eat around 700 cals everyday until my bday, I'll get to 60kg (130lbs). It's not my GW, but still a solid way better than were I'm at now

people are so silly sometimes. They're talking how they want to lose weight but are triggered by the idea of eating less. You're literally meant to eat less calories one way or another.

I'm not saying you shouldn't eat a proper meal and stuff, but you can't tell me that watching what you eat/calories aren't literally an important factor. You shouldn't need to stuff your face constantly and eat 3K calories

I want to be able to look at an overweight person and feel relieved that I don't relate to them and wonder how it can get so bad.