Miss You Domino.

I know when I'm stinky

People call you a smelly cat

And what I'm feeding you (because you heard that I sucked and just wanted to check in)

And I said that I only do things that make you happy even when I just wanna SCREAM

But I don't, because unlike you and everybody else with all of your letters and degrees and diplomas, of which I have a few myself. They are no longer the armor I wear when I present myself. Because what I have now is way better than anything anyone else could have ever taught me

I used to think I couldn't say that I went to the school of hard knocks, but I think almost going to the brim and then sometimes coming back is still worth talking about.

At the end of the day, it's obviously working for him (and fortunately for me too!) #winsum#dimsum

Because he's not only my soul cat-e and shadow,

But he's the cutie idiot that wakes me up purring to see me. Not for food maybe like your pet(s), but because my simple existence brings him so much joy that it literally pours out of him like my sweat, tears and words.

Cos he knows I love sitting in the sun as much as him

But cos he knows we're always #better together

#animal magnetism #samesame #butdifferent #strongertogether

It ain't easy being me.

You'll find someone to cherish you one day like this too 🌚🌝

I never learned to take my time. When I finally sing for you, I will know what you overcame I will know you rewrote your game Your world will never be the same.

Her yact 🌜🌛 is in the harbour now

See if you can spot her

Another immigrant comin' up from her bottom

Her enemies try to destroy his rep, she forget herself but...

Finally am 🌙🖤🌚🌝

#LIVESTREAM

I just spent almost 2 hours writing what I thought would be one of my most favorite picture essays ever. And it had music and quotes and God knows what else in it.

Because I'll never know, because you'll never know, because Tumblr fucked up and it crash and didn't end up saving the draft. Or at least I couldn't find it.

But I came up with that idea and all my thoughts on it on the spot. And even in the raw form I felt like it represented me enough to share it because I knew the people who got it, would get it. Because I used too many references and layers, and some people can't fuck with onions.

And sometimes I start cutting my peppers instead because they feel more important at the time because that's how my brain used to work. But now I'm making it my bitch, since I know I'll always go back to the onions because I started there already. It's just not the right time for me to cut them now.

But I am capable of everything. And it's scaring me. Because now I want to live since I have so much to do, I'm wondering how I'll ever have enough time.

After my three car accidents for various reasons, I have been telling my family that I will eventually die in a car crash. But there is a reason why I didn't yet. And depending on what car I was driving and what I was doing to pay for it however much I could, I was either so grateful to survive or so. Despondent to think that it couldn't have been so easy.

I've never had a threat of suicide because I've always been too fucking chicken to actually do it myself. I've always tried, but I know half heartedly even though I thought I meant it. Because I wanted to give myself a chance to live.

Since I don't post anything to social media anymore, I didn't have anyone to bear witness, and I like that just fine.

Because I do it all baby. I can't box myself into a dating profile, but professionals and personals are supposed to know everything they know about me through my Instagram as you may?

No. To really understand why I'm about to commit seppuku is not because you're a fucking moron. Throwing yourself on someone else's sword. And inviting yourself to someone else's war on purpose than getting mad because you didn't research your tour guides enough and they let you astray. #thats ultra maga lame tbh #so sorry #hard knock life 🎻🎻🎻

You have access to my auto updating resume, and you might want me on your team because I'm a hard fucking worker. But you're too scared to even look because you know I'm going to come for your job as well too.

But you don't know that I never would because I'd be pushing you to succeed even more than me so I could succeed in my own ways. # we are not the same # thank glob # mutations rule # X-Men #freaksgive #beats

I'm already going to put competition, not collaboration, and I'm the fucking Capricorn on my merch so don't even think about it. I have receipts. And Tumblr always has my back.

And I finally know why they scream witness me before they throw themselves into oblivion. Because at that moment, they're falling into oblivion thinking they're doing what that gross dude at the top of the mountain was doing in Furry Road #funtypo #feelscute #maydelete #later but #enjoying #reading it #now #sothatcanbeenough #for me and #me only

Because he had the biggest balls and access to all the water and raped every single woman and child he made and came across. Doesn't seem like the guy I want to look up to. Even though he's put himself on the highest peak. Like I said, it's all about #perspective. Sorry I figured out the ultimate cheat code to my life and you haven't yet, but it took me a while. And I'm willing to help. Because I'm great at tech and video games and cheat codes and perma death, and whatever you're going to need in the situation because I'm also a gamer.

I'm better than you now but I've seen you succeed and outrun me every single time. And instead of getting upset, I finally get off the couch and run after you because it's fun to see if I can actually get you. Because friendly competition can exist. Because I can insult you and love you at the same time. Because you can't put me in a Venn diagram even if that's all you see your life as. Because I used to, and I used to force my thoughts into boxes. But now I'm following my thoughts and letting me take them where they lead.

And thank you to all the other আপাক্স out there!

Frozen dumb enough to stick my head in the oven when I felt like it was the right thing to do, and now I get to reward you with my idea of a good time.

Welcome to my graveyard.

Here lay the people I gave more than an iota of attention to.

Because I chose to.

Unfortunately, some people think I need them when I'm depressed.

Because I have lost my power so much. And now you have too.

Thank goodness for both of us, me the most 🤙🏽✌🏽

Excited to finally start living and enjoying the city it's meant to be enjoyed.

Hope you all finally find some piece and quiet here.

I have 🖤

My head is a lot less noisy without you.

And I will have to be my own:

Everything

Everywhere

All at once

But this time, I'm ready to fight 🖤

Moving forward: Will continue trying to be mindful of my footprint moving forward as I start on this new journey.