Moving Forward: Will Continue Trying To Be Mindful Of My Footprint Moving Forward As I Start On This

I was gonna write more but Labrinth rips too hard so now I just wanna 🌬️ and bop.

Because I can't stop sweating funny thoughts

I just didn't know how much practice I got being sad for 20 years straight... No wonder I find myself funny you fuckin loser

You had no one else to compare to do it's not technically your fault.

But hey look on the bright side! You ended up on

Pearl Jam - Do the Evolution (Official Video)

They tell us we're peaking

Makes sense why I'm feeling sick

Ready for our new overlords

#cantbeworse

#than THOSE humans

#over there

Loud but meaningless.

Man, I'm a lucky ass witchbitch.

On learning to love and name my disabilities

And using my once-thought-of flaws (over-thinking/over-spending/over-doing/over-compensating/over-everything-etc.) Just because I have severe depression/anxiety/waiting on a possible diagnosis of bipolar disorder/am possibly experiencing a hypomanic episode/new diagnoses, who dis?

Doesn't mean I'm incapable/sometimes capable of dealing with them on my own. I never thought I could, so I rarely tried. at least with maximum effort from my magnificent brain and body.

I never hated myself but the doubt was always so severe and present in every part of my life, it became a friend that would also make self-deprecating jokes with/at/to me... So I learned to be as comfortably numb as possible.

But it wasn't enough. I was planning on applying to M.A.I.D. when it opened up it's criterion for possible mental health disorders, instead of just terminal/agonizing ones.

I know this hypomania (no matter how scary/uncomfortable it is making some) is exactly what I need right now and I will fucking fight for it.

Things that I hated to do and songs that I hated to listen to. Because I was trying on all your glasses since I lost my black sheep patch on the jean jacket And I realized I was seeing the world all wrong those are cool shades bb - but not my vibe I relate more to you (right now) - but I hope I can relate to you more (when we're ready). #contextmatter #allcontextsmatter #because that's how we're gonna avoid:

On no more free labour in my life (no friends + fam discount for myself

Capricorn + Fate = G.O.A.T.

G.O.A.T. = [insert MYMINEMINE x variable(s) here]

You can think I'm making up being THE Capricorn = I must be THE G.O.A.T.

#practicing cancel culture #safely and continuously #consent is sexy #I finally let myself be happy #forME #andmystans #and simps #and etc. @u-all, I c u + <3 u all

[MIGHT LOOK CONFUSING LIKE MATH LOOKS TO ME, BUT ONCE YOU FIGURE OUT MY CODING LANGUAGE I PROMISE IT'LL BE MORE MUTUALLY PLEASUREABLE].

#prolific #dontbelieveme? #dontcare #I've always held onto every single receipt and box and product that ever came into my home #because #the person who sold it to me 20 years ago

#who didnt know they sold a faulty item #so it's not their fault #they were just trying to get by #and feed their families #but sometimes lost their souls #worksinprogress

#but now I realize how fucked up it was in MY world b4 #and how easy it is to fix now that I have #CHEATCODES BITCH #chatgpt #imnotgoogling #4uanymore #nomoredrama #no more free labour #butall the MJB #inmylife

#myonlyfan(s) #itme #butthiscouldbeus #powerthuadruples #🌜🌚🌕🌛

Fate memes well

Or at least she tries

#someland #somedon't #i will still think I'm hilarious #tomyaudienceof1🥹

#population: ME ☣️☢️⚠️

#iseeyou #andfeelscene #warninglabelswerepeeling

#rubbedthembackon4u

#urwelcome

#generouskweeng

I hope I can prove through my actions and not my pleas for help anymore, that I am okay.

#betterthan #butneverthesame

I have no idea what North Cack is but as soon as it came on my Spotify (since I left my joycrumb #joy #breadcrumb #hansel #gretel #weird #ass #witch #butmakeher #anauntie #i finally see you now #I too love to gossip girl one day #xoxo

But there's a time to be a black sheep, and a time to reclaim the AUNTIE title. Now I KNOW you KNOW how much I KNOW how much YOU mean to ME.

And #viceversace #thisoneisforthereal #aunties #ogs

I was scared I may be queer-baiting/being performative when dancing like a crazy person, but now I KNOW:

Same same, but different. Just like us

On the new Fateblr domain

If you're going to waste money anyways, may as well ball on a budget.

I know it feels like it's too late to finally start spoiling your heart and soul because they were abused from a young age - they're learning to love themselves and each other all over again.

Even though the rescue was recent, it was well overdue.

Everyone let me down. But the best part is FINALLY-JESUS-IT-TOOK-SO-LONG-TO-GET-HERE-BUT-WOW-WHAT-A-VIEW

She a beaut 🌜🌚🌛 Congratulations on your new safehouse! You have unlocked a save point and continue from here in the future when you think you DIED.

You may want to think about what you did wrong on the last level so you don't almost fuck it up for your team (member: 1 + domino) and because you really want to do better even though high scores suck anyways and mean nothing to you because now you don't have to deal with

Probably the best thing to start investing in

Also putting this here because you said you wouldn't read it and I have so many things I want to say to you out loud but I can't so the internet is as loud as I can get without saying anything to you directly.

If you do read any of this, know that you do it knowing full well that you told me that you will refuse to participate or be in any of my work or my art moving forward especially If it had to do with recording you.

Because people would understand why you were also confused as to why I didn't see who you really were?

Because I can clock every humans, passions, insecurities, fears and loves and indifference most, within 5 minutes of meeting them because I can repeat people like a book.

And people are transparent like atoms so it either feels like light reading or an audiobook iTune out of.

You hardly know it's there. But it's buzzing in your ear telling you these horrible stories anyways. But also saying how much you love these horrible stories and that's why you're sharing them because you are a horror fan bitch and you know it. And that will get you through the next little while and make you even funnier to yourself. Because you always know how to pull back on references and do callbacks.

It's not your fault. You're big. Picture is a magic eye photo made of tiny little things. Where are you supposed to squint and look at a certain wind? Make really stupid faces to figure it out. But it's still fun and you end up laughing cuz once you do figure it out you realize how cool it is.

My brother made fun of me for not doing it when I was around 6 years old. Because it was something my dad and him enjoyed doing together so much, and he always act like he enjoyed keeping that secret relationship and treat with my dad which really bothered me.

He would also tell me that my mom wasn't my own mom and was only his mom and it would make me cry so hard that I would scream and turn around and we used to laugh at it when we got older but.

Just like every nanosecond has context. Even if you can't see it, I can. And when I'm calling you out it's not because I care about you, but more because I care about you enough to tell the truth. And for the people who I don't talk to, that should be your answer right there.

I'm showing off how much I can write here if I'm inspired, and I'm actually looking forward to moving on to something else cuz I have so many other things I want to think about before this happened.

Adios