noorkasamundar
| Noor | she/they/he | 20 | virtuous, volatile velociraptor
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im going to scream from my roof because these two really are giving me the most obsessed ive been with two gay characters in like months AGHHHHHHBH
Sooooo subtle
TW: loneliness and depression
it's easy to tell myself sometimes that im alright being on my own..but when the people who you would lay down your life for say that they have more important things going on in their life than you, it stings. i haven't seen my closest friends in months, and when i was finally looking forward to that, they cancel, and profusely apologise.
i can't even say that im mad because ive grown far too much to hate and grudge for life to occur to someone, but i wish i could say that people i miss, do infact miss me to. i fear that no one really misses me at all, and it'll be alright for them to ghost me for some more months, as they have done.
i worry that my love has faltered in appearing back to me, and perhaps that is all my fault. i guess i am lonely, and tied down to the walls of a home that offers me only contempt and control disguised as care and catharsis. my friends don't feel mine anymore, and i suppose that feeling this lonely might just be my new constant.
loneliness physically aches me, and i physically ache with moments of hope, fading with each second that another person tells me they'd rather be somewhere else than ask me how i was. i feel selfish, but still so deeply, utterly, lonely.
THE URGE TO WATCH THIS SHOW IS SO REAL RIGHT NOW. HANNIBAL AND WILL ARE MY DADS AND THEY RAISED ME, I SAID WHAT I SAID!
Otters will forever be the most dramatic creatures on the planetš¦¦
me days before my birthday be like
SO REAL FOR THIS
also, i have an exam tomorrow. but here i am, looking at men on my dash. sigh.
@itolduthings I LOVE YOU SO MUCH... you are the best bestie ever!!!!!!
ššš
NOOR ACTIVE ERA?!?!?!
NOOR FINALLY OPENED TUMBLR ERAAA
Chai tea bag + lil but of brown sugar + apple cider packet + 16 oz. mug of hot but not quite boiling water
it will not Fix You but like. maybe. maybe.
*cats are my one true love**
As I Was Moving Ahead Occasionally I Saw Brief Glimpses of Beauty (Jonas Mekas, 2000)
crying in cry
āletās make a promise. your weed will always be my weedā
I LOVE YOU SO FKN MUCH
@noorkasamundar appreciation post!!!! we love her sm!!!!
i love her, and I always will; she's the apple on a tree I cherish, an autumnal evening in this rainy August; and she's the air i wish to forever breathe <3
i need to go into the middle of an ocean and scream, and take a dunk in that water to come out reborn as a water witch who has seaweed like soft hair and a moonlit glow
if i didnt make my own decisions, my life would be so much better šš½šŗš½
I HATE IT HERE. I HATE IT HERE. I HATE IT HERE. I HATE IT HERE. I HATE IT HERE.
I remember what it tasted like; it was so familiar to the piercing spice of your blood āļø
-Zoƫ Lianne
WHAT IF HES WRITTEN MINE ON MY UPPER THIGH ONLY IN MY MIIIIIINNNDDDDD
One slip and falling back into the hedge maze
Oh what a way to die
I keep recalling things we never did
Messy top lip kiss
How I long for our trysts
Without ever touching his skin
How can I be guilty as sin?
me the minute i sat in this cab to go to uni; can i just be a 5 yr old with my grandma making me lunch as i run around the house and laugh again please? Why did I have to grow up (ā Tā Tā )(ā Tā Tā )(ā Tā Tā )(ā Tā Tā )(ā Tā Tā )
whoever said uni would be fun clearly never existed in this fucked up era; airports are so fucking classist and insanely uncomfortable for what man; fuck capitalism
Babies death certificates are being issued before their birth certificates in Gaza.
A journalist in Gaza just reported on the story of the father who lost his 4 day old twins in a strike that also killed the infants mother and grandmother. He mentioned how the man was supposed to pick up the twins' birth certificates but received the devastating news that they were killed instead. You can watch footage of him receiving the news in the thread linked above, it's too painful to download and share.
You can no longer pretend you don't know or that this is too complicated. This is it. Israel is attempting to obliterate an entire population and destroying any means of life in Gaza and you are bearing witness to this unspeakable cruelty.
~im patched up, and sewed with scars all over again, it hurts~
I can feel my palpable hunger. It's growling slowly, softly eroding the acid in my stomach. But this is not about food. This is not about how much I long to be fed and cared for. This is about me doing nothing to curb my insane hunger. Nothing at all. I cannot leave my seat until it is time for me to eat. I am not allowed to eat before that. My existence means nothing earlier than the time assigned to me.
I am external to my own hopes and feelings. I am a creature of habit, lost and so fucking confused because all my patterns are changing now. I don't bite all my nails off at once. I'm eating and sleeping and living. What the actual fuck? Where are my habits, pulling me into those cyclical bouts of depression and anxiety?
Wait, slow down.
Numbness engulfs me. I want love. Someone to hold and kiss. Oh gosh, this is crazy. Did you know insane people dress really well? I cleaned and ate and worked and I'm breaking all my natural habits to co-exist with criminals.
Criminal behavior is cool. I want to kill them. Preferably kill me, burn all my notes to the fucking ground, and forget I ever felt a single fucking thing.
I'm so lonely. I'm laughing internally. No, those are tears of blood. Fuck, Fuck, Shit. Ha ha ha.
I stole shit when I went shopping. I steal things and cry about pants that don't fit my ugly legs anymore. Self-deprecation is so much fun! Ha, you thought I was getting better. What in the world does getting better even mean?
I am literally a social construct and would not exist if everything never existed and existence is so taxing. I need sleep. I want to kill you, maim your skin with scars given from a Swiss knife. I carry poison around like it's something to be proud of.
FUCK, FUCK, SHIT.
Bye bye bye.
Materialistic shit is so fucking cool. Buy me stationary thanks, wait not those pens. My favorite color is green, idiot.
Do you think Dolphins know they will all die one day? I want to taste pizza with ketchup again. Let's get pizza and watch the stars and no, never mind, you remind me of my dead father.
Grave? Oh you mean mine? Yeah, it's already prepared. A death note, a step-by-step process. I intend to be a rich dead motherfucker that takes her own life. Gunshot to the head, blood names on the walls, and a shit ton of cash floating in that bloody bath.
Blood money. Use it at will.
Bye bye, fuck.
Itās entirely inappropriate that Haniās fundraiser has been stalled ~20k away from its goal for months now. I donāt mean to be so aggressive, but it actually makes me so resentful when I start thinking of the fact that ao3 fundraisers w triple that goal reached it in days. I know that Hani has done everything from showing proof of authenticity, to going into his familyās strife in detail, to even providing picturesāsomething he absolutely does not have to do. Ignoring that and allowing the campaign to stagnate entirely is so cold. Please share and donate what you can. Clearly no one else has been.
https://gofund.me/a1d1a50c
I am Osama Thaer from Gaza. I lost some of my family members in the war, my home, my school, my toysā¦and memories. I love you and look forward to your support and spreading the link I want everyone to support me for a better future There is still hope I have high hopes for you I love you my friends
Hello ššø,
I hope you're well. Dr. Farhat's family urgently needs our help due to the ongoing violence. Please share and support the "Save Dr. Farhat's family from genocide in Gaza" campaign. Every share makes a difference.
Link: https://gofund.me/e9f9ce20
Thank you so much for any support you can provide š.
With gratitude,
Dr. Farhat's Family š¹
Verified campaign #248 by @el-shab-husseinĀ @nabulsi.
Hoping this reaches people who can donate!