i need to be under 50kg
i need to be under 50kg
i need to be under 50kg
i need to be under 50kg
i need to be under 50kg
i need to be under 50kg
I avoided binging this evening, I'm so happy w myself.
Turns out that having a bigger lunch (trust, it was big.) that makes you full really helps.
Currently in exam season so i allow myself to eat more (i fear that getting a degree is more important than starving atm), but I'm still teaching myself to only eat when hungry and avoid snacking too much, esp on sugars. Since my fasts, my hunger has gone down and i feel less the need to eat as often. At least snacking, anyways. Like, yeah, i crave food but i have less the feeling like i'm hungry and NEED it, just simpky the idea of it that i can usually just get over.
Nobody:
My brain throughout the day
how long have you been fasting for?
how many calories are you gonna eat today
how many calories have you burned
why don't you move more
why do you eat rn?
that's too many calories
don't eat don't eat don't eat
try to fast a bit longer
maybe we should eat so we don't pass out
why can't I just be skinny
fatass
why'd I eat that
I ought to force myself to fast for logner
Do I deserve this?
ugh why does he have to come over again, don't make me eat
thigh gap
why are my thighs/belly so big
I wish I was thinner
i hate being so wide
I want to get so thin and sickly looking that my mom stops enabling but makes me eat.
too bad I hate throwing up and i'm too much of a pussy to do it to myself
Chocolate covered strawberries >>>>
(I count about 30 cals per strawberry)
I was so skinny as a child, why didn't I stay that way
Maybe I'm just balls deep into my £d but I don't get the hype of having 3 meals a day. I understand ppl who have it because they legit need it to function (esp while you're alr struggling w an £d and splitting your calories throughout the day works best for you), and ppl w/ a b.e.d. Finding comfort in food is a thing and I get it.
But otherwise... why are ppl so obsessed w/ eating? You don't constantly need to shove food in your mouth. You can just go on w/ your day, do whatever you have to do and eventually eat when you're actually, properly hungry.
Things I'm looking forward to
Thin arms
Thin thighs
Smaller hips where you can feel my bones better instead of fat
Smaller belly
Slimmer face
Looking more elegant
Looking good in jeans