People Are So Silly Sometimes. They're Talking How They Want To Lose Weight But Are Triggered By The

After dealing w a b.e.d. for years and now having trouble w how I view myself (and dealing w restricting), it's so hard to resist binging sometimes.

I wish I was a pickier eater

I was pissing my bf off for the giggles, and he was like "yk I'm gonna go get lunch later, right? What if I eat your food before I get home."

He was obviously joking, but he doesn't know that I acc wouldn't mind lmao. An excuse to skip the meal

Rants w Arcane | pt. 2

I know this isn't my usual content, my I just wanted to get it off my chest. Maybe it brings some comfort to ppl in similar situations.

My education is very important to me. My main form of validation is academic, and while I wasn't a top student in high school, I was happy I graduated and found it a flex that I finished high school in a different country, in a different language. Now I'm an university that ranks top worldwide. I knew it wouldn't be easy, but I had failed all my exams in january. Looking back, my study methods were just really not right and that's why I didn't do well. It obviously took a toll on how I viewed myself. Thus, the past semester, I've been in a constant toxic cycle of putting particularly high expecations of what I should do/what I should achieve by overworking myself, attending all my classes and student society (already 9 hours in a day) and studying an extra 4 hours in between and working out whenever I could. On top of that, I had fueled my £d as much as I could, pushing myself to get worse.

Dealing with the pressure of school, an £d, a relationship and going home every weekend where my relationship with my parents isn't the best obviously took its toll on me. After about 4 to 5 months of that, it seems like my brain finally is giving up. My anxiety is getting bad again and I might need meds again, if I don't get better. I don't want to bother people with it, but it is also something I cannot just keep hidden. I hope that things will get better soon and I should take better care of myself.

For anyone else in a similar situation, know you're not alone and you deserve to take care of yourself. It's ok to step on your pride and do things that'll help you feel better.

Fasting is addicting once you get into it

DPDR core

Feeling like you're stuck in your body/brain

Feeling like this is some sort of dream you can't wake up from

Everything is overstimulating

Agoraphobia

Trouble sleeping

Not being able to function because you're so distracted by the feeling that nothing exists

"Am I really me? Is this body me?"

Overly anxious

Panic attacks

People thinking it's a funny quirky thing, not knowing it consumes every bit of you

using your phone or laptop as a distraction from existing

Feeling numb

Struggling with eye contact

Being restless in crowded places

25 things to do instead of binging

Cleaning your room

Arranging your wardrobe

Look at outfit inspos on Pinterest

Scroll through social media

Call a friend

Play a video game

Spend some time with your pet

Talk with your parents or siblings

Clear your phone gallery

Do one of those BuzzFeed quizzes

Wash your shoes

Go for a walk

Make a random wishlist

Study for school

Read a book

Drink water

Hang out with s friend

Take a nap

Draw something

Try origami

Watch a YouTube video

Watch a movie or series you've been post poning

Make a list of places you want to visit

Look online for decorations for your room

Make a new playlist

Hearing someone else say "I'm not hungry" while I'm eating floods me with guilt and kills my appetite. Every time.

Chocolate covered strawberries >>>>

(I count about 30 cals per strawberry)