Xxsadist0nexx - Not Bad, Just The Worst ;)

Do you still think about people from your past

Yes bitch, I’m traumatized

really fucking hate the life that ive made for myself

I relapsed today..

everythings just been getting worse and worse. i couldn’t take the empty feeling in my chest any longer. i picked up one of my old blades and it took away all the sadness i felt:/. i feel happy n at peace now… things really are getting worse.

You want me to be happy? Put a gun to my head and pull the damn trigger.

God, i feel like such a fucking burden. Why can’t i just shut up and deal with it myself.  i’m sure that no one wants to hear me whine about how fucking repulsive i am… i wish i could just stop being so fucking annoying.  i always do the same fucking shit of getting bad again every few months like an absolute fucking idiot and slitting myself all over and just. being so fucking disgusting. i’m sure that at this point everyone’s so fucking done of me complaining about it. i don’t even know why i bring it up… they’re clearly so fucking tired of me.

why wouldn’t they be?

My brain needs to shut up shut up shut up. I want to smash it until it stops

Yeepp

Anyone else feel like they’re just procrastinating their suicide

I’m so tired of having to do this to myself. I feel so much emotional pain only physical pain can help.