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I myself am an ashtray. I keep lighting up and

stubbing myself out.

I take a breath and consume my own smoke.

Poison after poison,

my knack for self-preservation outweighs

my self-destruction by a single ash.

Where do I keep these butts of hope?

Half charred reminders that I almost

burnt out completely, twenty times over.

I paint it from every angle, but the truth remains:

Self-inflicted damage won’t disguise the

marks someone else left.

“I want someone to see the dark parts of my mind. The messy, the scary, the destructive parts and still choose to stay.“

#selfh4rm #cvts #s3lfh@rm #styrotwt #styrocvts #bl@des looking 4 mutuals:)

This.

Maybe I self sabotage my life just so I can have a reason to end it all...

And in the end, maybe that's what I've wanted all along...

To end it...

Tw// scars, self harm

Have you ever wanted to just roll you sleeves up???? Wear those short shorts???? And have no one bat an eye??? Like yes the scars are super apparent but no one mentions it, just a nonverbal air of understanding and moving on from it

Nobody:

My brain: …you should just go kill yourself it would make everything so much better

Id give up all the world to go back, before I fucked everything up...

But now that you hate me..

And its over

I just wanna hold you.

..I gotta try to live with the mistakes i made..

And im having a hard time living with myself today.... 💔

TW s3lf harm

One month clean... I have first therapy today and i'm stressed out