Id Give Up All The World To Go Back, Before I Fucked Everything Up...

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me at literally any minor inconvenience…

me: i want to kill myself

best friend: wtf?! why??

me: i spilled milk

best friend:…so clean it?

me: no, you don’t understand…i must die now

Nobody:

My brain: …you should just go kill yourself it would make everything so much better

TW: BLOOD AND SH

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Do you ever feel hollow and empty? Like the soul has been sucked out of you and there’s nothing left?

That’s how I’ve been feeling today, I just wanna be done. Part of me wants to fight and try to do good things for the world and make a change. But I’m just tired, I just wanna take a really long nap because I’m exhausted. I never get a break, and I feel like I’m on autopilot all the time.

Hi can someone please just kill me? Like, right now?

Me at night wondering how I fucked up my life so bad

I couldn’t not share this…

I've tried it once and samee

you know what i find interesting? those stories about suicide survivors that say they realized every one of their problems could be solved without suicide as they were attempting (and obviously failed). they were glad to have failed, and use this to encourage others not to commit suicide.

but for me, i’ve personally attempted twice. I’ve only felt even sadder that I didn’t die. so yea, pretty much guaranteed that suicide is what it’s gonna be for me.

Last night was one of the worst. I just couldn’t stop crying cuz somebody close to me almost died. Thankfully everything turned out fine in the end but it really took a toll on me. I couldn’t sleep so I tried reading a book but that just made me cry more. Life is hard innit </3

God, i feel like such a fucking burden. Why can’t i just shut up and deal with it myself.  i’m sure that no one wants to hear me whine about how fucking repulsive i am… i wish i could just stop being so fucking annoying.  i always do the same fucking shit of getting bad again every few months like an absolute fucking idiot and slitting myself all over and just. being so fucking disgusting. i’m sure that at this point everyone’s so fucking done of me complaining about it. i don’t even know why i bring it up… they’re clearly so fucking tired of me.

why wouldn’t they be?