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I love how my coping mechanisms just make me worse
list of things im handling well currently
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I want to be taken care of :((
Take Care: Mothers, Daughters, and Inheriting Self-Hatred, Ella Wilson
Why wasn’t I happy
“you’re so chill” thanks i’m avoiding reality with everything that i have
this year has done nothing but pour salt in my wounds and create new ones. fuck 2023.
this attitude came from pain, I wasn’t always like this
doubting everyone's intentions because I was hurt the most and left by the people who said that they'd never do me like that.
there’s literally not a single person in this world that understands how i feel, because i don’t even understand myself
D.W. Winnicott
— Albert Camus, The Possessed
Why do I fuck up everything
I used to be so over-achieving when I was younger, but now I just feel like I cant do anywhere near as much. Its like after moving away from the trauma, even though I'm in a safer place now, I'm absolutely exhausted. While I was going through the abuse, I was able to achieve so much, and get everything done that I needed to and more. But now it seems like I've been weakened. I was capable of doing more, so how come I can't do it now?
Anyone else feeling this way?
