Latest Posts by prollymaia - Page 2

I wanna take a shit ton of pills and take away the burden I put on everyone

Im getting worse hour by hour and nobody knows. And it should remain that way.

Sometimes I cry myself to sleep, and I want to die.

But I don't talk about it.

i think we should all admit how lonely we are. then we should talk. it will all be okay if we risk being authentic

“I am alone with my own thoughts and it’s dangerous.”

-cress

Everybody around me has some kind of dreams, goals for the future.

When I look at the future, it's just an empty darkness.

I HATE when people tell me "just forget about your trauma" or "just get over it" or even "just be happy".

Like, how?? I get flashbacks everyday and sometimes multiple times a day.

How can someone "forget trauma"?

How can someone "get over trauma"?

How can someone "just be happy" over trauma"?

LIKE, FUCKING HOW???

It really annoys me and VERY triggering too.

Does anyone else get annoyed and triggered by that statement?

The Age-Herald, Birmingham, Alabama, September 12, 1913

I feel if I told ppl everything I've been through they wouldn't believe me cos it feels so dramatic

most days i am a museum of things i want to forget.

— E.E. Scott, from Every Day I Am Trying New Techniques To Make Myself Disappear, published in Shabby Doll House

I feel like a broken plate. My shards are too sharp and i have shattered into a million pieces. The pieces are too small and can never be glued back together again.

[ID text — you knew what you were doing and you knew it would hurt me, but somehow that didn’t stop you]

I don’t always know if I’m my own self or pieces of the people from my past

Book: The Pain of Healing by Samantha Camargo on amazon 💛

self destructing is the only thing that’s consistently stayed with me and i find a great deal of comfort in it