Comparing Myself To My Friend (skinner, Also Struggling With An Ed)

Maybe I'm just balls deep into my £d but I don't get the hype of having 3 meals a day. I understand ppl who have it because they legit need it to function (esp while you're alr struggling w an £d and splitting your calories throughout the day works best for you), and ppl w/ a b.e.d. Finding comfort in food is a thing and I get it.

But otherwise... why are ppl so obsessed w/ eating? You don't constantly need to shove food in your mouth. You can just go on w/ your day, do whatever you have to do and eventually eat when you're actually, properly hungry.

Would I prefer to satisfy a thirty minute craving or have the body I’ve craved for a lifetime ?

I want to get so thin and sickly looking that my mom stops enabling but makes me eat.

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Keep going until you're excited to weigh yourself

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Eating multiple course meals <<<<<<<<

Life is unfair. starve yourself or get over it

It felt so good a while ago when I went to class and was talking tow friend of mine (WAY skinnier than me) and tell her I didn't eat anything that day, after she was rambling abt how much she ate. She was yapping abt how she had some side effect of meds and how she already had like 2 meals and snacks and still felt hungry, and I was like "oh I didn't have anything today."

She was so shocked, but I felt so good. Like yeah I'm bigger than you and still have a better discipline.