Would I Prefer To Satisfy A Thirty Minute Craving Or Have The Body I’ve Craved For A Lifetime ?

Footage of my brain (2025, colorised):

Your waist is huge.

Look at that.

Ew…

People may like you but they will never truly accept you if you look like that.

eating under my cal limit >>>>>>

Convos w Arcane | Part 1

On my previous account, I once mentioned how my bf kept bringing up calories. He knew I was dealing with ana, so whenever we were gonna order dinner or whatever, he'd be like "oh, maybe not that food, I know you don't like too many calories." And stuff.

While I understand that he's autistic and might miss the cue of not bringing it up (and the fact that he said he wants to eat healthier), it still bothered me.

Ppl were rather upset in the comment section, saying I should "pick a side" seeing how "I have an £d but don't like it when my bf is enabling me." And how that person would love it to have a bf like that. My thing, however, is the following. I don't mind talking abt it, esp if you want to understand me/£ds better. However, I'd rather not hear from ppl (esp close to me) being up calories and all that when we go eat. I already think abt it constantly and it gets worse when I have to have a bigger meal w ppl, so I'd rather not hear it extra externally. It's genuinely exhausting as is.

"oh the thing that's on your mind non stop on your mind and affects so many parts of your life and the way you function? Reminder that it exists. :)"

no cuz the ppl who said that fasting is addicting were right. I've been progressively more interested in trying to fast, and started w 12 to 16 hours, and did a 24 hour recently. It's on my mind constantly now

my bf knows i'm tring to lose weight and shi and he told me last night something like "yeah and when you're skinny..." abt cuddling or so

Safe foods

gang i used an app and if i eat around 700 cals everyday until my bday, I'll get to 60kg (130lbs). It's not my GW, but still a solid way better than were I'm at now

I just did my 24 hour fast yesterday and it was so good :0 What works for me is to have dinner nad then wait until dinner the next day because then I already sleep for a good chunk of it and am not rlly a breakfast person. Thus, I easily get to 12 to 14 hours. Then I just went to my classes and stuff and managed to get to 7 PM

No matter your size you deserve love, kindness, and recovery ❤️

Comparing myself to my friend (skinner, also struggling with an ed) <<<<<<<