Chocolate covered strawberries >>>>
(I count about 30 cals per strawberry)
Comparing myself to my friend (skinner, also struggling with an ed) <<<<<<<
“starving yourself won’t make you happy”
sorry a girl just wants to wear her slutty little top and shorts
Don't reward yourself with food, you're not a pig
No matter your size you deserve love, kindness, and recovery ❤️
On my previous account, I once mentioned how my bf kept bringing up calories. He knew I was dealing with ana, so whenever we were gonna order dinner or whatever, he'd be like "oh, maybe not that food, I know you don't like too many calories." And stuff.
While I understand that he's autistic and might miss the cue of not bringing it up (and the fact that he said he wants to eat healthier), it still bothered me.
Ppl were rather upset in the comment section, saying I should "pick a side" seeing how "I have an £d but don't like it when my bf is enabling me." And how that person would love it to have a bf like that. My thing, however, is the following. I don't mind talking abt it, esp if you want to understand me/£ds better. However, I'd rather not hear from ppl (esp close to me) being up calories and all that when we go eat. I already think abt it constantly and it gets worse when I have to have a bigger meal w ppl, so I'd rather not hear it extra externally. It's genuinely exhausting as is.
"oh the thing that's on your mind non stop on your mind and affects so many parts of your life and the way you function? Reminder that it exists. :)"
Maybe I'm just balls deep into my £d but I don't get the hype of having 3 meals a day. I understand ppl who have it because they legit need it to function (esp while you're alr struggling w an £d and splitting your calories throughout the day works best for you), and ppl w/ a b.e.d. Finding comfort in food is a thing and I get it.
But otherwise... why are ppl so obsessed w/ eating? You don't constantly need to shove food in your mouth. You can just go on w/ your day, do whatever you have to do and eventually eat when you're actually, properly hungry.
The feeling after fasting for 16 to 24 hours >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
I'd rather be called skin and bones than a whale
I wanna vomit, I hate my lower stomach.