I Don't Have The Time To Google It For You, But I Believe In You Kid. You Have What It Takes, You Just

#SERIES: #On my thoughts #(in stereo+)

If words aren't your cuppa tea because I either type too fast and/or you read too slow, whatever works or doesn't 🤷🏽‍♀️

maybe these songs will put you in my right (and only right right now) headphone #typo headphones* but #headphonesisfunnyenough #for me to leave it in there for now #to see if it'll be a #callback #joke #iykyk #fatesphreaks #vampirefreaks #wasmyspace

or at least see why they sound like i upgraded from mono to surround

Because these songs speak to me in a way words never can. And some words deserve not to be spoken #enjoy the silence #wordscanbeviolent

and sometimes I'll explain exactly how i relate, and sometimes I'll be the one the construction guys across the street in Toronto (because everything's under construction here, including me) are laughing at.

Because they finally SEE me dancing like no one's watching. But I see them watching while I'm dancing. #whostherealwinner #itme #winwin #winsumdimsum

That is all this series will be when it starts. For now enjoy what I'm vibing with as I'm liking this.

Soon I will host a live Twitch stream since I know we always wish we could hang with each other, but x, a, b, pik ur poision, and variable, we can do it all! At least now you can hop on when I'm there, because I'm only turning my camera on when I welcome company and/or feel like I have something stupid/funny/smart/intelligent to say. Whatever you have to believe to make YOU feel safe. I'm finally building my own encampments in MY NEIGHBOURHOOD #fuck #nimbyism

Because I know where my parents came from, and I know which way the world is going, but only I know how I'm getting from A --> B. No matter if the world or my own daring kills me (survivor of 3 car crashes and eternal depression/anxiety/suicidal ideations/thoughts) me first.

At least when they audit me - my receipts will FINALLY fucking explain:

who i am

where i came from

where i wanted to go

where i ended up

who walked with me in [x] = ERA (mine tho)

picked up my language on DuoLingo when they have time/bandwidth

what I was consuming:

whether it be food:

love

anger

fear

heartbreak

hope

the lack thereof

when i had times of happiness

or not

when I was a good person

and #viceversace

I can keep writing like I'm running out my time

because I almost smashed my own hourglass

thankgod i didnt

bitch loves to bedazzle

because iyrk

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thx for sticking by

ur a warrior if you didn't know

You may see this like this because like my thoughts come in all shapes and sizes, so do all my soulmates.

#capitalizing #consciously #onmy #love #friends #art #goals #dreams #laughs #tears #etc.

I'm sorry I found abundance in myself and am carte blanching on my personally curated art gallery/cafe/print shop/safe space/community acupuncture clinic/hair+makeup+nail+curly+straight+gay+brown+white

Not everyone understood Basquiat's/Jimi/A.R. Rahman/[x] 's madness or genius when they were alive.

And then we spend the rest of their life admiring their lifeless work in a institution where they stole all of our best people and treasures. And we're supposed to say thank you and admit to you that we don't know what YOU think that art means. Because we finally figured out what our oppressors asked our ancestors.

and the rote memorization they made us perform #without #fucking #consent on top of performing as slaves in some for for every single one of them

Welp. I rage quit so. If YOU want. Keep looking at me looking at me.

But I'm the captain of my ship now, and u best get out the way #withrespect #leadingwithlove #andcurbstomps #press b for bawss-ome #iykyk #gow #xbox #gamer #gorl

And I will have to be my own:

Everything

Everywhere

All at once

But this time, I'm ready to fight 🖤

Love getting my family's new generation into things that means so much to me.

You've always played easy

And I've always been stuck on hard mode

I praised you so you would play with me

But you never wanted to #literally

Figuratively

Too literally

Filled my pockets and wallet

Drain my laughs and made me think who you really are

Was my savioir

More like sanguine

I'm drained babe. Wish you well. Sorry you forgot this fun fact about me.

I may not be a doctor or have as many letters as my doctor or YOU

But men oh men

You both done diddly squat in it now on your own volition

Teabagging your own shit pretending like you shot me

I was always a better sniper/mage-type

You always chose different types

I played to my strength

"You're not supposed to play as yourself in games, you're supposed to play as who you wanna be cos it's your wonderland."

Guess what motherfucker,

I guess I want to be myself because I'm on my own fucking hero, the fantasy wasn't the person, the fantasy was all the stuff I could make and do in the game because I always knew the fastest and best and quickest way to get to the top, kill the bosses in a few hits and then start playing all over again and hard mode immediately.

That's me.

Right now I've seen the true you, and I wish it wasn't so. But I had to give up eggs for a reason, and Thank God I finally thought I could do it and follow through. And took accountability. Without trying to be too obnoxious of a vegan because I wasn't perfect but trying to be perfect because my vegan friend meant so much to me.

Nothing meant anything to you, Burr.

Your only consistent principle (The thing that you kept getting between us, I'm not going to say letting because if I didn't want it there it would not be there, I didn't because I cared about you and you couldn't communicate like me. But I still wanted to try talking language even though you were drifting apart for so long bracket). Thing was this whole time. I thought you were the one holding me up .

Just like I looked at the abyss wrong - upside down - and darker than I remember because I've been there so many times before.

(maybe because of you?)

I don't want to believe it.

Because you're a good man

You just continued this long enough to see yourself become my villain.

I told you the ball is in your court

You were standing up for yourself to the side facing away and hoping that people would sorted out themselves because you didn't want to deal with it. Because you didn't want to cuz you were too busy and important trying to run the world, but because

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Cotton Candy Morning

Things that I hated to do and songs that I hated to listen to. Because I was trying on all your glasses since I lost my black sheep patch on the jean jacket And I realized I was seeing the world all wrong those are cool shades bb - but not my vibe I relate more to you (right now) - but I hope I can relate to you more (when we're ready). #contextmatter #allcontextsmatter #because that's how we're gonna avoid:

On no more free labour in my life (no friends + fam discount for myself

Capricorn + Fate = G.O.A.T.

G.O.A.T. = [insert MYMINEMINE x variable(s) here]

You can think I'm making up being THE Capricorn = I must be THE G.O.A.T.

#practicing cancel culture #safely and continuously #consent is sexy #I finally let myself be happy #forME #andmystans #and simps #and etc. @u-all, I c u + <3 u all

[MIGHT LOOK CONFUSING LIKE MATH LOOKS TO ME, BUT ONCE YOU FIGURE OUT MY CODING LANGUAGE I PROMISE IT'LL BE MORE MUTUALLY PLEASUREABLE].

#prolific #dontbelieveme? #dontcare #I've always held onto every single receipt and box and product that ever came into my home #because #the person who sold it to me 20 years ago

#who didnt know they sold a faulty item #so it's not their fault #they were just trying to get by #and feed their families #but sometimes lost their souls #worksinprogress

#but now I realize how fucked up it was in MY world b4 #and how easy it is to fix now that I have #CHEATCODES BITCH #chatgpt #imnotgoogling #4uanymore #nomoredrama #no more free labour #butall the MJB #inmylife

#myonlyfan(s) #itme #butthiscouldbeus #powerthuadruples #🌜🌚🌕🌛

I know I leave myself breadcrumbs so I can find myself when we're lost in the woods because you never ask for directions to the Owl House

It's like those magic eye pictures.

I heard data gets you hard 😏

If Rupi Kaur can find her fanbase, I sure as hell stand a chance ya?

Also putting this here because you said you wouldn't read it and I have so many things I want to say to you out loud but I can't so the internet is as loud as I can get without saying anything to you directly.

If you do read any of this, know that you do it knowing full well that you told me that you will refuse to participate or be in any of my work or my art moving forward especially If it had to do with recording you.

Because people would understand why you were also confused as to why I didn't see who you really were?

Because I can clock every humans, passions, insecurities, fears and loves and indifference most, within 5 minutes of meeting them because I can repeat people like a book.

And people are transparent like atoms so it either feels like light reading or an audiobook iTune out of.

You hardly know it's there. But it's buzzing in your ear telling you these horrible stories anyways. But also saying how much you love these horrible stories and that's why you're sharing them because you are a horror fan bitch and you know it. And that will get you through the next little while and make you even funnier to yourself. Because you always know how to pull back on references and do callbacks.

It's not your fault. You're big. Picture is a magic eye photo made of tiny little things. Where are you supposed to squint and look at a certain wind? Make really stupid faces to figure it out. But it's still fun and you end up laughing cuz once you do figure it out you realize how cool it is.

My brother made fun of me for not doing it when I was around 6 years old. Because it was something my dad and him enjoyed doing together so much, and he always act like he enjoyed keeping that secret relationship and treat with my dad which really bothered me.

He would also tell me that my mom wasn't my own mom and was only his mom and it would make me cry so hard that I would scream and turn around and we used to laugh at it when we got older but.

Just like every nanosecond has context. Even if you can't see it, I can. And when I'm calling you out it's not because I care about you, but more because I care about you enough to tell the truth. And for the people who I don't talk to, that should be your answer right there.

I'm showing off how much I can write here if I'm inspired, and I'm actually looking forward to moving on to something else cuz I have so many other things I want to think about before this happened.

Adios