You've Always Played Easy
You've always played easy
And I've always been stuck on hard mode
I praised you so you would play with me
But you never wanted to #literally
Figuratively
Too literally
Filled my pockets and wallet
Drain my laughs and made me think who you really are
Was my savioir
More like sanguine
I'm drained babe. Wish you well. Sorry you forgot this fun fact about me.
I may not be a doctor or have as many letters as my doctor or YOU
But men oh men
You both done diddly squat in it now on your own volition
Teabagging your own shit pretending like you shot me
I was always a better sniper/mage-type
You always chose different types
I played to my strength
"You're not supposed to play as yourself in games, you're supposed to play as who you wanna be cos it's your wonderland."
Guess what motherfucker,
I guess I want to be myself because I'm on my own fucking hero, the fantasy wasn't the person, the fantasy was all the stuff I could make and do in the game because I always knew the fastest and best and quickest way to get to the top, kill the bosses in a few hits and then start playing all over again and hard mode immediately.
That's me.
Right now I've seen the true you, and I wish it wasn't so. But I had to give up eggs for a reason, and Thank God I finally thought I could do it and follow through. And took accountability. Without trying to be too obnoxious of a vegan because I wasn't perfect but trying to be perfect because my vegan friend meant so much to me.
Nothing meant anything to you, Burr.
Your only consistent principle (The thing that you kept getting between us, I'm not going to say letting because if I didn't want it there it would not be there, I didn't because I cared about you and you couldn't communicate like me. But I still wanted to try talking language even though you were drifting apart for so long bracket). Thing was this whole time. I thought you were the one holding me up .
Just like I looked at the abyss wrong - upside down - and darker than I remember because I've been there so many times before.
(maybe because of you?)
I don't want to believe it.
Because you're a good man
You just continued this long enough to see yourself become my villain.
I told you the ball is in your court
You were standing up for yourself to the side facing away and hoping that people would sorted out themselves because you didn't want to deal with it. Because you didn't want to cuz you were too busy and important trying to run the world, but because
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Why is it cool when a man, THE man for some has a fuckin play
Written about him, no matter how impressive his legacy
Legacy
Miss you Domino.
Sorry this week has been so cruel to us.
Can't wait to hold you in my arms again. And squeeze!
Hang in there buddy. I promise I'm coming home 🖤
I don't have the time to Google it for you, but I believe in you kid. You have what it takes, you just have to believe in yourself.
Thanks my brother for sharing something. I would have never come across because I don't read shit like the rolling Stone anymore, but sometimes they finally decide to feature someone no matter if on the cover or in a bylog that makes me scream loudly. Because to me and my world and my view in my experiences and the only world I know where I know I always try to tread lightly and sometimes I step on a few caterpillars but that's not because I hate them because they're kind of grossing with Wrigley and spiky sometimes.
I don't understand why people can believe that I can hit two deer by accident and almost God knows what could have happened to Vic and myself, and that I spent my entire night crying for it. Not because I got caught, because I call the police because I knew I had no other choice. And Vick and I were terrified the entire time because we were in upstate New York at 10:00 p.m. in the middle of nowhere on the side of a field.
This is America, can't catch me slipping up. I've been called out for being born in Saudi Arabia, I didn't know I had a choice in that matter. Sometimes because I thought if I had a choice I wouldn't be here at all, so you were probably right to question me about that to begin with. How fucking dare you? I was 14 years old traveling alone on a Greyhound bus for 4-9 hours by myself just so I could visit my sister who meant everything to me. We couldn't live together because our pads have to cross differently because we didn't have all the options that so many people do. But we still loved our lives, and we still love it. Now. She is still my best friend and my second mother, and probably the closest person to me other than Domino's. And Vick obviously, but if you have a sister or have some sort of a bond with anyone with any sort of feminine energy in your life, you know what that maternal nurture instinct can do to you when it's not kicking out of the house for being different.
Will you remember?
Will I?
Thanks for always taking care of me by your method of I.C.U.
You looked me over and made me better and checked me out and send me on my way, and I lost my way. But then I found my way back to you, and for now that's everything.
Sorry you weren't allowed to shine like you deserved. You did look amazing btw, I know it's hard to love yourself or even bear it sometimes.
At least you got to enjoy 7 days of it before they pulled the rug out from under you.
At least no one's holding a gun to your head anymore.
Guilt and fear will no longer win.
Also putting this here because you said you wouldn't read it and I have so many things I want to say to you out loud but I can't so the internet is as loud as I can get without saying anything to you directly.
If you do read any of this, know that you do it knowing full well that you told me that you will refuse to participate or be in any of my work or my art moving forward especially If it had to do with recording you.
Because people would understand why you were also confused as to why I didn't see who you really were?
Because I can clock every humans, passions, insecurities, fears and loves and indifference most, within 5 minutes of meeting them because I can repeat people like a book.
And people are transparent like atoms so it either feels like light reading or an audiobook iTune out of.
You hardly know it's there. But it's buzzing in your ear telling you these horrible stories anyways. But also saying how much you love these horrible stories and that's why you're sharing them because you are a horror fan bitch and you know it. And that will get you through the next little while and make you even funnier to yourself. Because you always know how to pull back on references and do callbacks.
It's not your fault. You're big. Picture is a magic eye photo made of tiny little things. Where are you supposed to squint and look at a certain wind? Make really stupid faces to figure it out. But it's still fun and you end up laughing cuz once you do figure it out you realize how cool it is.
My brother made fun of me for not doing it when I was around 6 years old. Because it was something my dad and him enjoyed doing together so much, and he always act like he enjoyed keeping that secret relationship and treat with my dad which really bothered me.
He would also tell me that my mom wasn't my own mom and was only his mom and it would make me cry so hard that I would scream and turn around and we used to laugh at it when we got older but.
Just like every nanosecond has context. Even if you can't see it, I can. And when I'm calling you out it's not because I care about you, but more because I care about you enough to tell the truth. And for the people who I don't talk to, that should be your answer right there.
I'm showing off how much I can write here if I'm inspired, and I'm actually looking forward to moving on to something else cuz I have so many other things I want to think about before this happened.
Adios
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