Xxsadist0nexx - Not Bad, Just The Worst ;)

I don't think most people understand the urge to kill yourself every time you do something wrong

This.

Maybe I self sabotage my life just so I can have a reason to end it all...

And in the end, maybe that's what I've wanted all along...

To end it...

I literally crave intimacy. Just physical contact my guy. One good honest hug. A kiss perhaps. To hold a fucking hand

Yes please.

can’t i just be hit by a car or something so i don’t have to kill myself

Stop guilt tripping the suicidal

People need to stop guilt tripping suicidal people. We feel enough guilt from our brain telling us what pieces of shit we are. Guilting us by saying we’re going to cause heart ache to those around us is unproductive. Instead of wanting me to stay alive due to your selfish reasons try and help me stay alive for myself. Just like cancer is part of the body attacking itself mental illness is the brain attacking the body and most of us who are suicidal or end up going through with it didn’t do so willingly. We lost a battle with our own brain. Please be kind and careful when talking to suicidal people like we try and be kind and careful to not hurt you with our feelings. We don’t want to hurt others. We are fighting within ourselves whether to release ourselves from such horrible pain or continue trotting on for the sake of others. We try our hardest. We’re not all successful. And while it’s heartbreaking when someone loses a battle to depression it isn’t their will or desire to hurt others. It’s this yearning to finally find inner peace, and it’s the body’s way of obtaining it.

TW: BLOOD.

The only thing that makes me feel alive.

Same

Cant remember how my arms look like unscarred. It feel like I always had them.

Suing my parents.

I'm suing my parents for giving birth to me without my consent.