So Real

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I have these awful thoughts about eating. I'm scared I'll listen to them and eat and then feel guilty about it again.. ★•★•★•★•★•★•★•★•★

•★ First 24 hours. I'm going for more ★•

••★ thrift store blessed me with this gorgeous belt today ★••

please, ignore my body.

•★ Literally fav apps ★•

•★ B0dy check from today. I'm not really satisfied... ★•

•★ I did 25 hours fast because I was forced to eat something but I spat most and threw up the rest. I've never done it before so I'm kinda proud of myself. Definitely will use it once more ★•

•★ Decided to post a b0dy check from yesterday bc why not ★•

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Wish I didn't have to break it soon. Maybe he'll forget...

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My sweet boy is $hing and I took his blades and told him to never do it and thought it's enough but he and his mom said I act like I don't care about him doing it at all when I actually do care. I care a lot. I just don't know what I should do. I should care more. I don't know why I can't show it... I feel like the worst girlfriend ever..

•★ So I tried to throw up today again but after 20 minutes I only got rid of like 1/5 of that I ate. My family will make sure I eat during weekend but I thought that maybe I could throw up after every meal. Unfortunately it's not so easy... ★•

I've been eating all day, I feel so disgusting....