•★ Decided To Post A B0dy Check From Yesterday Bc Why Not ★•

•★I feel so fat and disgusting today. I ate three meals and it just feels so wrong. I'm starting fast tomorrow ★•

My sweet boy is $hing and I took his blades and told him to never do it and thought it's enough but he and his mom said I act like I don't care about him doing it at all when I actually do care. I care a lot. I just don't know what I should do. I should care more. I don't know why I can't show it... I feel like the worst girlfriend ever..

•★ I want to listen to someone new. I'm looking for something similar to Mitski/ Alex g/ Lana Del Rey. I need music that will be melancholic in a good way, something that I can get attached to/ relate to. Any suggestions? ★•

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I live for this album

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I've been eating all day, I feel so disgusting....

45 hours of fast and a binge right after coming back home... I feel disgusting

•★ First 24 hours. I'm going for more ★•

•★ I feel so unreal lately. Like it's not me and my life I'm living. I look at myself in the mirror and I feel like I'm looking at someone else. Or sometimes I can't even tell how I look like because every time I look at myself it's different. I do things and then I'm not sure if it really happened or I just told myself it did. ★•

•★ I'm gonna cry, my boyfriend wants to force me to eat ice cream with him. He said it's a punishment for throwing up earlier. I'm doing so well, I don't want to break my fast ★•