The Feeling After Fasting For More Than 12 Hours >>

gang i used an app and if i eat around 700 cals everyday until my bday, I'll get to 60kg (130lbs). It's not my GW, but still a solid way better than were I'm at now

Rants w Arcane | pt. 2

I know this isn't my usual content, my I just wanted to get it off my chest. Maybe it brings some comfort to ppl in similar situations.

My education is very important to me. My main form of validation is academic, and while I wasn't a top student in high school, I was happy I graduated and found it a flex that I finished high school in a different country, in a different language. Now I'm an university that ranks top worldwide. I knew it wouldn't be easy, but I had failed all my exams in january. Looking back, my study methods were just really not right and that's why I didn't do well. It obviously took a toll on how I viewed myself. Thus, the past semester, I've been in a constant toxic cycle of putting particularly high expecations of what I should do/what I should achieve by overworking myself, attending all my classes and student society (already 9 hours in a day) and studying an extra 4 hours in between and working out whenever I could. On top of that, I had fueled my £d as much as I could, pushing myself to get worse.

Dealing with the pressure of school, an £d, a relationship and going home every weekend where my relationship with my parents isn't the best obviously took its toll on me. After about 4 to 5 months of that, it seems like my brain finally is giving up. My anxiety is getting bad again and I might need meds again, if I don't get better. I don't want to bother people with it, but it is also something I cannot just keep hidden. I hope that things will get better soon and I should take better care of myself.

For anyone else in a similar situation, know you're not alone and you deserve to take care of yourself. It's ok to step on your pride and do things that'll help you feel better.

About me

Measurements

SW: 106kg

CW: 99kg

GW: 50kg

UGW: 45kg

Who am I?

Hi! I'm feather-wannabe :) I'm a 20 y/o uni student who struggles with an £d. My previous blog got deleted, so here am I. It lowk sucked cuz I got to around 1.2K followers and some mutuals (whose users I forgot ): ) but I'm sure that I'll make some new friends on here.

I post things here that I'm thinking of and it is not meant to have a negative influence on younger people. As you've seen others mention, please block instead of report. If you want to be mutuals/friends, I'm definitely down for that!

I love memes, writing, artist like Crystal Castles, Pastel Ghost and Billie Eilish and gaming! Welcome to my blog :)

I was so skinny as a child, why didn't I stay that way

while I'm not necessarily heavy on the thigh gap, I'm dying to have thin legs. I need my bones to show.

Stop trying to cheat your way out of a fast. The weight won't come off by itself

I just did my 24 hour fast yesterday and it was so good :0 What works for me is to have dinner nad then wait until dinner the next day because then I already sleep for a good chunk of it and am not rlly a breakfast person. Thus, I easily get to 12 to 14 hours. Then I just went to my classes and stuff and managed to get to 7 PM

DPDR core

Feeling like you're stuck in your body/brain

Feeling like this is some sort of dream you can't wake up from

Everything is overstimulating

Agoraphobia

Trouble sleeping

Not being able to function because you're so distracted by the feeling that nothing exists

"Am I really me? Is this body me?"

Overly anxious

Panic attacks

People thinking it's a funny quirky thing, not knowing it consumes every bit of you

using your phone or laptop as a distraction from existing

Feeling numb

Struggling with eye contact

Being restless in crowded places

what's the big deal with eating anyways. It's tasy, yeah, but why should my life revolve around it

Don't reward yourself with food, you're not a pig