I Wish I Was A Pickier Eater

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It felt so good a while ago when I went to class and was talking tow friend of mine (WAY skinnier than me) and tell her I didn't eat anything that day, after she was rambling abt how much she ate. She was yapping abt how she had some side effect of meds and how she already had like 2 meals and snacks and still felt hungry, and I was like "oh I didn't have anything today."

She was so shocked, but I felt so good. Like yeah I'm bigger than you and still have a better discipline.

Whys everyone so obsessed about food? If they just stop talking about it and insisting we go eat, I'd have an easier time losing weight

I wanna feel the bones in my body

How do I fast?

I made a few post abt me fasting lately, and I thought I'd share how I do it. I typically start my fast after dinner, which is usually between 6 and 8 PM. I do it ibecause I don't feel hungry for the rest of the evening and just need to resist having snacks or such. I then go to bed, and wake up between 7 and 9 AM. That already brings me 12 hours further, which imo is a win.

I'm not really a breakfast person, so it's easy for me to just go on abt my day and get to about 14 to 15 hours. At around that mark, it is already noon and I start feeling hungry, so I have a coffee or a sugar free energy drink/soda. As the afternoon passes, it can become more tempting to buy food, but it helps to do my fast during days in which I have around 6 hours of classes, Between 8 and 4. I then don't have access to food as i please, and it's easier to post pone. When I get home, I can focus on just cleaning my room, taking a shower and getting my desk ready to study.

When it's time for me to break my fast, I'm not really specific with what I eat. I have a normal meal, anything between 500 and 900 cals. I still obv try to op for something nutritious with veggies and go for water or sugar free drinks. Throughout the day, I also do my best to get my steps in. It's worth noting here that I don't try to push myself, if I feel unwell. You shouldn't, either.

If there's any advice I'd be able to give next to this, if you're also getting used to fasts, is to start with aiming for 12 hours, then 14 to 16 and see how your body reacts as you go. Also see what works for you best, regarding on how you start your fast.

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remember when I was so sick? I wish that you had believed me

Would I prefer to satisfy a thirty minute craving or have the body I’ve craved for a lifetime ?

Maybe I won't be skinny as a stick this summer, but I sure will be thinner by my birthday. Watch me lose 30kg by then.

REAL, I randomly stop studying just to scroll on tumblr and look through the tags. I also had a phase at some pointwhere I'd be like "it's ok to neglect my studies for a bit. I can't be stupid AND ugly."

does anyone else’s ED severely impact their academics? and not just in an “@na brain” way?

i mean instead of studying or doing online assignments i’m obsessively consuming media related to weight loss/food/dieting.

i feel guilty when i sit down to study or do schoolwork because “i could be burning calories exercising right now.”