On Always Keeping Receipts

#SERIES: #On my thoughts #(in stereo+)

If words aren't your cuppa tea because I either type too fast and/or you read too slow, whatever works or doesn't 🤷🏽‍♀️

maybe these songs will put you in my right (and only right right now) headphone #typo headphones* but #headphonesisfunnyenough #for me to leave it in there for now #to see if it'll be a #callback #joke #iykyk #fatesphreaks #vampirefreaks #wasmyspace

or at least see why they sound like i upgraded from mono to surround

Because these songs speak to me in a way words never can. And some words deserve not to be spoken #enjoy the silence #wordscanbeviolent

and sometimes I'll explain exactly how i relate, and sometimes I'll be the one the construction guys across the street in Toronto (because everything's under construction here, including me) are laughing at.

Because they finally SEE me dancing like no one's watching. But I see them watching while I'm dancing. #whostherealwinner #itme #winwin #winsumdimsum

That is all this series will be when it starts. For now enjoy what I'm vibing with as I'm liking this.

Soon I will host a live Twitch stream since I know we always wish we could hang with each other, but x, a, b, pik ur poision, and variable, we can do it all! At least now you can hop on when I'm there, because I'm only turning my camera on when I welcome company and/or feel like I have something stupid/funny/smart/intelligent to say. Whatever you have to believe to make YOU feel safe. I'm finally building my own encampments in MY NEIGHBOURHOOD #fuck #nimbyism

Because I know where my parents came from, and I know which way the world is going, but only I know how I'm getting from A --> B. No matter if the world or my own daring kills me (survivor of 3 car crashes and eternal depression/anxiety/suicidal ideations/thoughts) me first.

At least when they audit me - my receipts will FINALLY fucking explain:

who i am

where i came from

where i wanted to go

where i ended up

who walked with me in [x] = ERA (mine tho)

picked up my language on DuoLingo when they have time/bandwidth

what I was consuming:

whether it be food:

love

anger

fear

heartbreak

hope

the lack thereof

when i had times of happiness

or not

when I was a good person

and #viceversace

I can keep writing like I'm running out my time

because I almost smashed my own hourglass

thankgod i didnt

bitch loves to bedazzle

because iyrk

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thx for sticking by

ur a warrior if you didn't know

You may see this like this because like my thoughts come in all shapes and sizes, so do all my soulmates.

#capitalizing #consciously #onmy #love #friends #art #goals #dreams #laughs #tears #etc.

I'm sorry I found abundance in myself and am carte blanching on my personally curated art gallery/cafe/print shop/safe space/community acupuncture clinic/hair+makeup+nail+curly+straight+gay+brown+white

Not everyone understood Basquiat's/Jimi/A.R. Rahman/[x] 's madness or genius when they were alive.

And then we spend the rest of their life admiring their lifeless work in a institution where they stole all of our best people and treasures. And we're supposed to say thank you and admit to you that we don't know what YOU think that art means. Because we finally figured out what our oppressors asked our ancestors.

and the rote memorization they made us perform #without #fucking #consent on top of performing as slaves in some for for every single one of them

Welp. I rage quit so. If YOU want. Keep looking at me looking at me.

But I'm the captain of my ship now, and u best get out the way #withrespect #leadingwithlove #andcurbstomps #press b for bawss-ome #iykyk #gow #xbox #gamer #gorl

Finally am 🌙🖤🌚🌝

#LIVESTREAM

I just spent almost 2 hours writing what I thought would be one of my most favorite picture essays ever. And it had music and quotes and God knows what else in it.

Because I'll never know, because you'll never know, because Tumblr fucked up and it crash and didn't end up saving the draft. Or at least I couldn't find it.

But I came up with that idea and all my thoughts on it on the spot. And even in the raw form I felt like it represented me enough to share it because I knew the people who got it, would get it. Because I used too many references and layers, and some people can't fuck with onions.

And sometimes I start cutting my peppers instead because they feel more important at the time because that's how my brain used to work. But now I'm making it my bitch, since I know I'll always go back to the onions because I started there already. It's just not the right time for me to cut them now.

But I am capable of everything. And it's scaring me. Because now I want to live since I have so much to do, I'm wondering how I'll ever have enough time.

After my three car accidents for various reasons, I have been telling my family that I will eventually die in a car crash. But there is a reason why I didn't yet. And depending on what car I was driving and what I was doing to pay for it however much I could, I was either so grateful to survive or so. Despondent to think that it couldn't have been so easy.

I've never had a threat of suicide because I've always been too fucking chicken to actually do it myself. I've always tried, but I know half heartedly even though I thought I meant it. Because I wanted to give myself a chance to live.

Since I don't post anything to social media anymore, I didn't have anyone to bear witness, and I like that just fine.

Because I do it all baby. I can't box myself into a dating profile, but professionals and personals are supposed to know everything they know about me through my Instagram as you may?

No. To really understand why I'm about to commit seppuku is not because you're a fucking moron. Throwing yourself on someone else's sword. And inviting yourself to someone else's war on purpose than getting mad because you didn't research your tour guides enough and they let you astray. #thats ultra maga lame tbh #so sorry #hard knock life 🎻🎻🎻

You have access to my auto updating resume, and you might want me on your team because I'm a hard fucking worker. But you're too scared to even look because you know I'm going to come for your job as well too.

But you don't know that I never would because I'd be pushing you to succeed even more than me so I could succeed in my own ways. # we are not the same # thank glob # mutations rule # X-Men #freaksgive #beats

I'm already going to put competition, not collaboration, and I'm the fucking Capricorn on my merch so don't even think about it. I have receipts. And Tumblr always has my back.

And I finally know why they scream witness me before they throw themselves into oblivion. Because at that moment, they're falling into oblivion thinking they're doing what that gross dude at the top of the mountain was doing in Furry Road #funtypo #feelscute #maydelete #later but #enjoying #reading it #now #sothatcanbeenough #for me and #me only

Because he had the biggest balls and access to all the water and raped every single woman and child he made and came across. Doesn't seem like the guy I want to look up to. Even though he's put himself on the highest peak. Like I said, it's all about #perspective. Sorry I figured out the ultimate cheat code to my life and you haven't yet, but it took me a while. And I'm willing to help. Because I'm great at tech and video games and cheat codes and perma death, and whatever you're going to need in the situation because I'm also a gamer.

I'm better than you now but I've seen you succeed and outrun me every single time. And instead of getting upset, I finally get off the couch and run after you because it's fun to see if I can actually get you. Because friendly competition can exist. Because I can insult you and love you at the same time. Because you can't put me in a Venn diagram even if that's all you see your life as. Because I used to, and I used to force my thoughts into boxes. But now I'm following my thoughts and letting me take them where they lead.

On the new Fateblr domain

If you're going to waste money anyways, may as well ball on a budget.

I know it feels like it's too late to finally start spoiling your heart and soul because they were abused from a young age - they're learning to love themselves and each other all over again.

Even though the rescue was recent, it was well overdue.

Everyone let me down. But the best part is FINALLY-JESUS-IT-TOOK-SO-LONG-TO-GET-HERE-BUT-WOW-WHAT-A-VIEW

She a beaut 🌜🌚🌛 Congratulations on your new safehouse! You have unlocked a save point and continue from here in the future when you think you DIED.

You may want to think about what you did wrong on the last level so you don't almost fuck it up for your team (member: 1 + domino) and because you really want to do better even though high scores suck anyways and mean nothing to you because now you don't have to deal with

Probably the best thing to start investing in

I never learned to take my time. When I finally sing for you, I will know what you overcame I will know you rewrote your game Your world will never be the same.

Her yact 🌜🌛 is in the harbour now

See if you can spot her

Another immigrant comin' up from her bottom

Her enemies try to destroy his rep, she forget herself but...

Will you remember?

Will I?

Moving forward: Will continue trying to be mindful of my footprint moving forward as I start on this new journey.

David's T-Shirt and pin ❤ (t-shirt buy here :))