𝓦ᴏʀᴅs ᴀʀᴇ, ɪɴ ᴍʏ ɴᴏᴛ Sᴏ ʜᴜᴍʙʟᴇ ᴏᴘɪɴɪᴏɴ, ᴏᴜʀ ᴍᴏsᴛ

Trephination. An arcane medical procedure performed by savages upon those possessed of evil spirits. By boring a hole in the skull, they believed it would allow the demons to escape. Let us be thankful we live in more enlightened times.

Stonehearst Asylum (2014) | dir. Brad Anderson

Sylvia Plath, "The Jailor." Ariel

𝓦ᴏʀᴅs ᴀʀᴇ, ɪɴ ᴍʏ ɴᴏᴛ sᴏ ʜᴜᴍʙʟᴇ ᴏᴘɪɴɪᴏɴ, ᴏᴜʀ ᴍᴏsᴛ ɪɴᴇxʜᴀᴜsᴛɪʙʟᴇ 𝖘𝖔𝖚𝖗𝖈𝖊 𝖔𝖋 𝖒𝖆𝖌𝖎𝖈 ᴄᴀᴘᴀʙʟᴇ ᴏғ ʙᴏᴛʜ ꜜɪɴғʟᴜᴇɴᴄɪɴɢ ɪɴᴊᴜʀʏ, ᴀɴᴅ 𝑟𝑒𝑚𝑒𝑑𝑦𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑖𝑡. ᅠ┈┈ ᅠꜥꜤ ᅠ،، 𝄞 ࿔

A self-portrait 🥀

Instagram: @lexi_jude

Tag dump (ignore).

REMUS: :ㅤ𝑀𝑟.ㅤ( 𝐌𝐎𝐎𝐍𝐘 )ㅤ 𝑝𝑟𝑒𝑠𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑠 𝘩𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑜𝑚𝑝𝑙𝑖𝑚𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑠 … :ㅤ𝑀𝑟.ㅤ( 𝐌𝐎𝐎𝐍𝐘 )ㅤ 𝑝𝑟𝑒𝑠𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑠 𝘩𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑜𝑚𝑝𝑙𝑖𝑚𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑠 … / 𝑎𝑛𝑠𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒𝑑 :ㅤ[…]ㅤㅤ⌜musings / visual⌟ㅤㅤ𝛤𝜀𝑚𝜇𝑠 mischief management :ㅤRemus reacted.

JAMES: :ㅤ𝑀𝑟.ㅤ( 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐍𝐆𝐒 )ㅤ𝑎𝑔𝑟𝑒𝑒𝑠 𝑤𝑖𝑡𝘩 𝑀𝑟. 𝑀𝑜𝑜𝑛𝑦 … :ㅤ𝑀𝑟.ㅤ( 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐍𝐆𝐒 )ㅤ𝑎𝑔𝑟𝑒𝑒𝑠 𝑤𝑖𝑡𝘩 𝑀𝑟. 𝑀𝑜𝑜𝑛𝑦 … / 𝑎𝑛𝑠𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒𝑑 :ㅤ[…]ㅤㅤ⌜musings / visual⌟ㅤㅤ𝐽𝛼𝑚𝜀𝑠 mischief management :ㅤJames reacted.

SIRIUS: :ㅤ𝑀𝑟.ㅤ( 𝐏𝐀𝐃𝐅𝐎𝐎𝐓 )ㅤ𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑟𝑒𝑔𝑖𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑟 … :ㅤ𝑀𝑟.ㅤ( 𝐏𝐀𝐃𝐅𝐎𝐎𝐓 )ㅤ𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑟𝑒𝑔𝑖𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑟 … / 𝑎𝑛𝑠𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒𝑑 :ㅤ[…]ㅤㅤ⌜musings / visual⌟ㅤㅤ𝑆𝜄𝑟𝜄𝜇𝑠 mischief management :ㅤSirius reacted.

ㅤ𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑚𝑜𝑠𝑡 𝑛𝑜𝑏𝑙𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑎𝑛𝑐𝑖𝑒𝑛𝑡 ㅤ𝐻𝑜𝑢𝑠𝑒 𝑜𝑓 𝐁𝐋𝐀𝐂𝐊 ❜

:ㅤℎ𝑖𝑚 … 𝑚𝑦 𝑏𝑙𝜎𝜎𝜕ㅤ☍ㅤ( 𝑅𝑒𝑔𝑢𝑙𝑢𝑠 )ㅤㅤ

PETER: :ㅤ𝑀𝑟.ㅤ( 𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐌𝐓𝐀𝐈𝐋 )ㅤ𝑏𝑖𝑑𝑠 𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑓𝑒𝑠𝑠𝑜𝑟 𝑆𝑛𝑎𝑝𝑒 … :ㅤ𝑀𝑟.ㅤ( 𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐌𝐓𝐀𝐈𝐋 )ㅤ𝑏𝑖𝑑𝑠 𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑓𝑒𝑠𝑠𝑜𝑟 𝑆𝑛𝑎𝑝𝑒 … / 𝑎𝑛𝑠𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒𝑑 :ㅤ[…]ㅤㅤ⌜musings / visual⌟ㅤㅤ𝑃𝜀𝜏𝜀𝑟 mischief management :ㅤPeter reacted.

ERA: Marauders: *ㅤ𝑀𝑖𝑠𝑐ℎ𝑖𝑒𝑓 𝑚𝑎𝑛𝑎𝑔𝑒𝑑ㅤ[ 𝐌𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐮𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐬 𝐞𝐫𝐚 ]

If I'm lucky enough to see Dumbledore's secrets today I fear that I might revamp old Muses if it's as good as it looks like. 😩✨

And snap, with all the sneaky GIFs running around ... it does.

And after all those years, he knows how to complicate things; intensely.

“ Well, well — , ” obnoxiously low tittering lengthened what was supposed to be 'announcement' of someone's presence, “ look who the cat dragged in! ”

" Don't let the past consume you. " - for leta??

Breath came in shallow, shuddering gasps, lungs could no longer remember how to fully expand, constricted by the vise-grip of anguish. Tears would have welled unseen behind her expressionless facade, an opaque veneer concealing the tempest of emotions raging within the innermost chambers of her soul. There, entombed in the silent archives of her mind, Leta Lestrange wrestled with the specter of a future bereft of the possibility of Corvus' laughter and love - an existence as bleak and colorless as the unforgiving void that had torn him away.

The voice addressing her registered only faintly, like a distant echo reverberating through the cavernous hollows of her grief-stricken psyche. Each question circling around topic of past made her breathing feel like a Herculean feat, each inhale a laborious act of will, drawing in air that felt devoid of life-giving essence.

In the labyrinthine recesses of her consciousness, Leta wandered, a forlorn specter haunting the ruins of sibling bond, now reduced to a silent mausoleum of nostalgia and regret. Her presence back on the ship - vibrant and achingly poignant, Irma's call saturated her thoughts, rendering her mien an inscrutable cipher - a fragile mask concealing the maelstrom of anguish that raged akin with that fated storm within the innermost chambers of her shattered heart.

' Don't let the past consume you.' Words tasted foreign on upon tongue as she repeated to herself in mere whisp.

The bride of sorrow stared vacantly ahead, detached listlessly, untethered from the present moment. The words spoken to her hung in the air, fading into a distant, muffled echo as if emanating from the far end of a long tunnel. Heart felt leaden in her chest as she managed a typical honey-liquoriced answer as if nothing bothered her, " Past is but all-consuming. "

But how could she explain the weight of her grief? How could she articulate the way it wrapped around her like a suffocating shroud? ... Thoughts of Corvus like any day prior consumed her consciousness - flashes of what could be joyful memories now forever tinged with the grey pallor of his absence. The well-meaning words of comfort, offered by a faceless stranger, dissipated into the ether, powerless to penetrate the all-consuming miasma of despair that enveloped her, a suffocating shroud woven from the unraveling threads of a life forever altered by the cruel machinations of fate.

And somewhere out of this room of glamour, full of feathered hats, coquettish applause, pearls, and sparkling champagnes the sun dipped below the horizon, casting a warm glow across the room she couldn't see -- but concurrently felt the first stirrings of possibility. The past would always be a part of her, but perhaps it didn’t have to define her completely. That's what she always told herself, what her best --- her only friend told her. With each step forward, she could honor her little brother's memory while also reclaiming her own life. And for the first time in a long while, she felt a flicker of hope despite not purposely answering any further.

»  ━━  𝐉𝐎𝐒𝐇𝐔𝐀 𝐁𝐀𝐒𝐒𝐄𝐓𝐓 𝐓𝐑𝐈𝐋𝐎𝐆𝐘 𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄 𝐌𝐄𝐌𝐄𝐒.

lyrics  pulled  from  joshua  bassett’s  trilogy  of  songs.  please  amend  wording  or  pronouns  where  necessary.

𝐂𝐑𝐈𝐒𝐈𝐒.

“  my label said to never waste a crisis.  ”

“  here i am, guitar in hand.  ”

“  honestly, i didn’t want to write this.  ”

“  if you get to tell your truth then so do i.  ”

“  it’s cool if you want me to play the bad guy.  ”

“  don’t you dare act like i didn’t love you.  ”

“  don’t go thinking that i didn’t hurt too.  ”

“  don’t you ever wonder if i’m okay after all you put me through ?  ”

“  half the shit you’re saying is only half true.  ”

“  you’re messing with my life as a career move.  ”

“  i can’t help but wonder why you won’t make it end.  ”

“  i guess you would never dare to waste a crisis.  ”

“  what the hell am i supposed to do with that ?  ”

“  i wish that i could open my eyes and the nightmare be over.  ”

“  keep fanning the fire for the headlines.  ”

“  weren’t you the one who left in the first place ?  ”

“  weren’t you the one who called things off ?  ”

“  was it an act to love me ?  ”

“  was it an act to hate me ?  ”

𝐒𝐄𝐂𝐑𝐄𝐓.

“  i pulled into your driveway again.  ”

“  we kissed, but it felt different.  ”

“  i should have seen it coming then.  ”

“  you swore that you only had a crush.  ”

“  you told me that you would cut him off.  ”

“  my friends all warned me i should run for the hills, but i defended you still.  ”

“  because i knew rumours could kill.  ”

“  your secret is safe with me.  ”

“  oh you don’t even know i know.  ”

“  don’t worry because i’m keeping my mouth closed.  ”

“  how could you be so cold ?  ”

“   i really hope you had your fun.  ”

“  good for you fooling everyone.  ”

“  you had me tricked for sixteen months.  ”

“  your smoke and mirrors had me hypnotized.  ”

“  i heard the truth last night.  ”

“  when  your woe is me stops working, i bet your songs won’t sound the same.  ”

“  the truth you can’t dent, it changed everything.  ”

“  you can’t hide behind what’s clear as dare.  ” 

𝐒𝐄𝐓 𝐌𝐄 𝐅𝐑𝐄𝐄.

“  i don’t know what i did to deserve all this.  ”

“  i don’t want to be rude or on the defensive.  ”

“  but i’ve been through it too.  ”

“  i know you feel used.  ”

“  i know you’ve been hurt.  ”

“  anything i did to make you feel worse, i’d take it back if i could.  ”

“  nothing i say will ease the pain.  ”

“  why must i hurt for you to feel okay ?  ”

“  you don’t get to take all of me.  ”

“  set me free.  ”

“  i don’t need your apology.  ”

“  i don’t recognise you, not anymore.  ”

“  you’re not the love that i fell for.  ”

“  i’ve been running away.  ”

“  i’ve been facing my fears.  ”

“  it’s been a fucking year.  ”

“  i’ve been doing my time, i’ve been working on me.  ”

“  i wasn’t sure i’d survive.  ”

“  i’ve never felt so weak.  ”

“  i hope you know i still care about you dearly.  ”

“  i’ve got to lock the door and throw away the key.  ”

“  i won’t never let you hurt me how you hurt me again.  ”