“Off To Save The World, Are We?”

Just a reminder that Sirius did not call Harry “James” in the book.

MEANWHILE James:

James: *exists*

Severus:

#ㅤ𝐏𝐄𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐏𝐄𝐓𝐓𝐈𝐆𝐑𝐄𝐖 [ ... ] his fondness for power and powerful individuals is known since his school years.

Being a little opportunist that he is, instead of striving to obtain greater power , his insecurities prevents him from attacking his opponents directly when he knows he can't win in terms of raw strength / intellect. His loyalty belongs mainly to himself.

He rather switches teams, choosing always to side with the strongest from the bill of fare. The ex - Marauder is a type of person who would rather observe so long until finding the Achilles' heel and point the finger at the target for others to smite.

Because why would he remain on the side significantly weaker when the stakes are high?

Either kill or be killed. He always wants to ~ 𝐒 𝐔 𝐑 𝐕 𝐈 𝐕 𝐄 ~ and shall do literally anything to improve his situation and chances to do so. 'Talentless' in comparison with the rest of his friends but when it comes to trickery, survival strategy in order to save your skin he is as Remus once referred to him 'brilliant'. Let's not forget that this talentless man has actually planned a whole successful scenario and got Sirius to Azkaban with no evidence against him. No one would check his finger if he disappeared for good, right?

Wormtail cocooned himself in some impenetrable barrier of self-assurance - that he likes his new way of living beside Voldemort (that includes torturing people, killing them, etc.) And at some point ... power, POWER was something that successfully managed to control his deeds. Call it a forced self - HYPNOSIS. I believe there was a period in his life when he even took quite good care of himself by changing (drastically) his image ( attire, haircut, whatever guys do to look badass) to increase his self-esteem. ( Could this happen pre or post Potter's death? Maybe, close to the period of Azkaban's mass break. I am pretty much going to manipulate with this idea in near future. )

But that wouldn't last for too long because the status of Death Eaters went downhill. They began to hide after Voldemort's downfall; from feared to hunted. And Peter quickly schemed the scenario of his death and went into hiding for 12 years. This leaves me impressed, that ( or why ) he remained loyal to Voldemort for so long, but obviously, his gut felt things, that he wasn't entirely gone, and his return was but a question of time + of course, he feared him too much to leave and played a key role in restoration of his physique rather than scatter like he typically would. Yes, he could pretty much use an opportunity to crawl back to Dumbledore, seeking forgiveness after hearing how well it worked for Snape, but he never feared Dumbledore enough to decide for his step. The loyalty out of fear was stronger here. But would Remus forgive him? There was another fear if the fellow Marauder chose to not forgive but kill him instead.

And what about Snape? His sudden change of side wouldn't trigger less his anxiety, with the sympathies he harbored for Lily, in case he would decide to pursue vengeance too. Alas! Azkaban mercilessly knocking on his doors. Hiding seemed like a good idea.

With such transformation, his personality went through if he was ever to meet Remus and Sirius -- either shortly after James' death or if Sirius would have survived the battle with Bellatrix ... it wouldn't be happy. No remorse at first glance, he would mock them. Justifying his behavior with their ignorance - not even paying attention once to what he REALLY wanted. Just like he did in Shrieking Shack : 'Remus ... Sirius? My friends!' or 'enjoyed your tripping in Azkaban?~'

There's way too much theories swirling around the concept of WHY Peter sold James and Lily to the Dark Lord ;

Did the Marauders have secret disagreements with each other? Was there a massive argument between James/Peter no one knew about?

Was Wormtail a secret sympathizer of Pure-blood ideology who disapproved of his friend marrying a Mudblood which would shatter the perfect image he had of him?

Was he too scared and thinking mainly about saving his own skin to avoid torture and death?

Was he just jealous and hurt by ignorance of his friends he could never match with and held some hidden grudges?

Or did he idolize James too much to the point of crushing on him, remaining angry with Lily for separating him from the Marauders? I said nothing, but it is in my head. Good Lord.

His traitorous habits link him perfectly to the RAT symbolism he willingly chose to select for his Animagus form. However, this still leaves a big question hanging: how was someone as cowardly as he sorted in 𝐆𝐑𝐘𝐅𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐃𝐎𝐑?

ㅤ ㅤ 𝐓𝐨 𝐛𝐞 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐮𝐞𝐝 ...

𝐓𝐖 ; dead James & Lily

Hints of topic in future 𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝟐.

Awakening compassion for the first time in long years.

Thanks to Peter dies a Potter ... ㅤ... and thanks to Potter dies he.

Sakutarō Hagiwara, from Face at the Bottom of the World and Other Poems; "Death of a frog"

Thinking about Sirius' anger issues.

A self-portrait 🥀

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who do you think Sirius had healthy relationships in his family?

The healthiest relationship Sirius had with ( from his entire family ) was: cousin Andromeda and uncle Alphard. Surprisingly, or not so those from the Black family who ended up marrying a Muggle-born seemed like the only normal people. Their only crime against the family was the capability of love, fondness, and compassion for anything different than themselves. It was obviously already too much, so we know that things like marrying anyone whose blood is impure and being sorted in Gryffindor are a total catastrophe.

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𝐈. ) ᅠANDROMEDA While being cousins and close by age, the two would often exchange the looks of silent agonies towards each other amidst traditional family festivities where their parents obviously glorified their supremacist soire. The two would quite often share secrets with each other about their tripping in the muggle world among a few laughs. If there was someone who wouldn't judge Andromeda's sympathies toward Tonks it would be Sirius.

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𝐈𝐈. ) ᅠALPHARD The only adult Sirius could lean on for support. It couldn't be his father for obvious reasons. Young Sirius couldn't spend as much time as he wanted with him because his parents feared Alphard was already enough of a bad example, and his infectious habits would only worsen Sirius' image in society. In fact he was the first and most responsible inspiration. We know how Alphard ended, posthumously disowned all thanks to Walburga's effort, leaving Sirius under the impression that it happened thanks to the charity gesture towards him. I believe it wasn't just a decent amount but well - a lot. A crucial moment that provided him the right aid to not be dependent on Potters and ruin his family's expectations, for his defeated return from utter despair to the place where he wouldn't be accepted regardless, and that would humiliate him even further.

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𝐈𝐈𝐈 . ) ᅠREGULUS Regulus? Regulus ... the question mark remains there for a reason. While Sirius and Regulus shared the same noble lineage as members of the ancient and most pure-blooded House of Black, the two brothers could not have been more different in their temperaments and ideals. There were a few bright moments, but their relationship could not be considered healthy, no, but it was ... less tensed than with his parents, at least. Sirius was semi-aware of Regulus' good consciousness, but he couldn't forgive him for its deliberate suffocation.

Regulus, on the other hand, was Sirius' polar opposite in nearly every regard. The younger brother was a dutiful son, obedient and eager to please his family's elitist pure-blood mania. Where Sirius was a trouble-making non-conformist, Regulus was a stickler for rules and tradition. In appearance, manner and conviction, the two siblings were as different as night and day - one a shining star who refused to be constrained, the other a shadow who sought belonging within the confines of his family's rigid ideology. The chasm between them was wide and unbridgeable, a testament to the vastly divergent paths an upbringing can set for two brothers.

Konstantin Batyushkov, from “Bacchante”

Text ID: Everything entices me to fury / Pours fire and poison into my heart

»  ━━  𝐉𝐎𝐒𝐇𝐔𝐀 𝐁𝐀𝐒𝐒𝐄𝐓𝐓 𝐓𝐑𝐈𝐋𝐎𝐆𝐘 𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄 𝐌𝐄𝐌𝐄𝐒.

lyrics  pulled  from  joshua  bassett’s  trilogy  of  songs.  please  amend  wording  or  pronouns  where  necessary.

𝐂𝐑𝐈𝐒𝐈𝐒.

“  my label said to never waste a crisis.  ”

“  here i am, guitar in hand.  ”

“  honestly, i didn’t want to write this.  ”

“  if you get to tell your truth then so do i.  ”

“  it’s cool if you want me to play the bad guy.  ”

“  don’t you dare act like i didn’t love you.  ”

“  don’t go thinking that i didn’t hurt too.  ”

“  don’t you ever wonder if i’m okay after all you put me through ?  ”

“  half the shit you’re saying is only half true.  ”

“  you’re messing with my life as a career move.  ”

“  i can’t help but wonder why you won’t make it end.  ”

“  i guess you would never dare to waste a crisis.  ”

“  what the hell am i supposed to do with that ?  ”

“  i wish that i could open my eyes and the nightmare be over.  ”

“  keep fanning the fire for the headlines.  ”

“  weren’t you the one who left in the first place ?  ”

“  weren’t you the one who called things off ?  ”

“  was it an act to love me ?  ”

“  was it an act to hate me ?  ”

𝐒𝐄𝐂𝐑𝐄𝐓.

“  i pulled into your driveway again.  ”

“  we kissed, but it felt different.  ”

“  i should have seen it coming then.  ”

“  you swore that you only had a crush.  ”

“  you told me that you would cut him off.  ”

“  my friends all warned me i should run for the hills, but i defended you still.  ”

“  because i knew rumours could kill.  ”

“  your secret is safe with me.  ”

“  oh you don’t even know i know.  ”

“  don’t worry because i’m keeping my mouth closed.  ”

“  how could you be so cold ?  ”

“   i really hope you had your fun.  ”

“  good for you fooling everyone.  ”

“  you had me tricked for sixteen months.  ”

“  your smoke and mirrors had me hypnotized.  ”

“  i heard the truth last night.  ”

“  when  your woe is me stops working, i bet your songs won’t sound the same.  ”

“  the truth you can’t dent, it changed everything.  ”

“  you can’t hide behind what’s clear as dare.  ” 

𝐒𝐄𝐓 𝐌𝐄 𝐅𝐑𝐄𝐄.

“  i don’t know what i did to deserve all this.  ”

“  i don’t want to be rude or on the defensive.  ”

“  but i’ve been through it too.  ”

“  i know you feel used.  ”

“  i know you’ve been hurt.  ”

“  anything i did to make you feel worse, i’d take it back if i could.  ”

“  nothing i say will ease the pain.  ”

“  why must i hurt for you to feel okay ?  ”

“  you don’t get to take all of me.  ”

“  set me free.  ”

“  i don’t need your apology.  ”

“  i don’t recognise you, not anymore.  ”

“  you’re not the love that i fell for.  ”

“  i’ve been running away.  ”

“  i’ve been facing my fears.  ”

“  it’s been a fucking year.  ”

“  i’ve been doing my time, i’ve been working on me.  ”

“  i wasn’t sure i’d survive.  ”

“  i’ve never felt so weak.  ”

“  i hope you know i still care about you dearly.  ”

“  i’ve got to lock the door and throw away the key.  ”

“  i won’t never let you hurt me how you hurt me again.  ”

Tag dump (ignore).

REMUS: :ㅤ𝑀𝑟.ㅤ( 𝐌𝐎𝐎𝐍𝐘 )ㅤ 𝑝𝑟𝑒𝑠𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑠 𝘩𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑜𝑚𝑝𝑙𝑖𝑚𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑠 … :ㅤ𝑀𝑟.ㅤ( 𝐌𝐎𝐎𝐍𝐘 )ㅤ 𝑝𝑟𝑒𝑠𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑠 𝘩𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑜𝑚𝑝𝑙𝑖𝑚𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑠 … / 𝑎𝑛𝑠𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒𝑑 :ㅤ[…]ㅤㅤ⌜musings / visual⌟ㅤㅤ𝛤𝜀𝑚𝜇𝑠 mischief management :ㅤRemus reacted.

JAMES: :ㅤ𝑀𝑟.ㅤ( 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐍𝐆𝐒 )ㅤ𝑎𝑔𝑟𝑒𝑒𝑠 𝑤𝑖𝑡𝘩 𝑀𝑟. 𝑀𝑜𝑜𝑛𝑦 … :ㅤ𝑀𝑟.ㅤ( 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐍𝐆𝐒 )ㅤ𝑎𝑔𝑟𝑒𝑒𝑠 𝑤𝑖𝑡𝘩 𝑀𝑟. 𝑀𝑜𝑜𝑛𝑦 … / 𝑎𝑛𝑠𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒𝑑 :ㅤ[…]ㅤㅤ⌜musings / visual⌟ㅤㅤ𝐽𝛼𝑚𝜀𝑠 mischief management :ㅤJames reacted.

SIRIUS: :ㅤ𝑀𝑟.ㅤ( 𝐏𝐀𝐃𝐅𝐎𝐎𝐓 )ㅤ𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑟𝑒𝑔𝑖𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑟 … :ㅤ𝑀𝑟.ㅤ( 𝐏𝐀𝐃𝐅𝐎𝐎𝐓 )ㅤ𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑟𝑒𝑔𝑖𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑟 … / 𝑎𝑛𝑠𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒𝑑 :ㅤ[…]ㅤㅤ⌜musings / visual⌟ㅤㅤ𝑆𝜄𝑟𝜄𝜇𝑠 mischief management :ㅤSirius reacted.

ㅤ𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑚𝑜𝑠𝑡 𝑛𝑜𝑏𝑙𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑎𝑛𝑐𝑖𝑒𝑛𝑡 ㅤ𝐻𝑜𝑢𝑠𝑒 𝑜𝑓 𝐁𝐋𝐀𝐂𝐊 ❜

:ㅤℎ𝑖𝑚 … 𝑚𝑦 𝑏𝑙𝜎𝜎𝜕ㅤ☍ㅤ( 𝑅𝑒𝑔𝑢𝑙𝑢𝑠 )ㅤㅤ

PETER: :ㅤ𝑀𝑟.ㅤ( 𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐌𝐓𝐀𝐈𝐋 )ㅤ𝑏𝑖𝑑𝑠 𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑓𝑒𝑠𝑠𝑜𝑟 𝑆𝑛𝑎𝑝𝑒 … :ㅤ𝑀𝑟.ㅤ( 𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐌𝐓𝐀𝐈𝐋 )ㅤ𝑏𝑖𝑑𝑠 𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑓𝑒𝑠𝑠𝑜𝑟 𝑆𝑛𝑎𝑝𝑒 … / 𝑎𝑛𝑠𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒𝑑 :ㅤ[…]ㅤㅤ⌜musings / visual⌟ㅤㅤ𝑃𝜀𝜏𝜀𝑟 mischief management :ㅤPeter reacted.

ERA: Marauders: *ㅤ𝑀𝑖𝑠𝑐ℎ𝑖𝑒𝑓 𝑚𝑎𝑛𝑎𝑔𝑒𝑑ㅤ[ 𝐌𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐮𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐬 𝐞𝐫𝐚 ]