i feel you in the sun shining down on my shoulders. in the breeze in my hair. in the tears on my cheeks. in the iron in my blood. in the taste on my tongue. in the scratch on my left shoulder. in bit marks down my neck. in your initial hanging from a chain around my neck.
we were everything. everything.
another valentine’s day without you is another year of melancholy.
i’d never been in a room so tense. then everyone came back broken.
i can see you falling away from the man i know.
when i can’t sleep at night, it is your memory playing in my head that keeps me awake.
i wonder what 10 year old me would do if i told her that her best friend is actually the love of her life.
i saw all the stars tonight. dozens of miles away from harsh city light. i can only dream to be as beautiful as them.
i wish this momentary calm could find the courage to last for the entirety of my life. but the war in my brain scares it away.
pick what you want. i don’t even care if it’s me. please just choose. you know the back and forth is breaking me.
(don’t worry it’s already happening)