when i can’t sleep at night, it is your memory playing in my head that keeps me awake.
i long to be simple minded.
she looks like me, talks like me, acts like me. and i know you can’t stand that she’s still not quite me.
my hands dig into your thorns because i swear they look just like your flushed cheeks.
someone asked me today if i had ever been in love. i shook my head no because what we had can’t fit under one four letter word.
i feel you in the sun shining down on my shoulders. in the breeze in my hair. in the tears on my cheeks. in the iron in my blood. in the taste on my tongue. in the scratch on my left shoulder. in bit marks down my neck. in your initial hanging from a chain around my neck.
as i watched my best friend hug her boyfriend today, i saw new love floating in her eyes.
i would fight for centuries to get my old self back.
i always end up falling out of love when i finally realize it was only lust.