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“No one has realized how unhappy I am…they haven’t noticed the dark inside my eyes”

- the suicide effect

The Man

The man you called ‘dad’,

The man who turned his back 

The man who left you alone to grow by yourself.

The man you no longer call dad,

The man who turned back,

Like years hadn’t pass.

Now the man that never calls back,

Asks why you never call back.

Makes you laugh,like he isn’t the man who left you alone to grow by yourself…

Me at night wondering how I fucked up my life so bad

Yeepp

Anyone else feel like they’re just procrastinating their suicide

i know its been said b4 but growing up suicidal and then reaching an age you never planned to live to is extremely stressful and terrifying, and we deserve more credit for not killing ourselves and THEN having to make up for the time we spent not caring if we lived or died and not doing work to improve our lives.

I’m so tired of having to do this to myself. I feel so much emotional pain only physical pain can help.

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Tw sh

Fake bl00d

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I say it

Just some sh stuff because I find it aesthetic:))

“Humans aren't as complicated as we believe them to be. Everyone comes with an instructions manual. We just assume others are so complicated because we don't look hard enough. Look in their eyes and I can promise you, they will tell you everything you need to know.”

— read the fine print

Relatable

The crazy thing about me hiding my depression is that my family and my friends don’t think I’m happy. No. They actually think I’m a REALLY happy girl. Like sooooo happy. Always smiling, always laughing, always making jokes.

My friends already asked me : « Is that actually possible for you not to smile !? »

It’s kinda funny to ask this to a depressive, insomniac, binge eater, self harmer, suicidal girl.