Some Atsushi Design Notes/headcanons

Concept: Atsushi with looser morals.

Atsushi was raised in an environment where the kind die first. A place where he was taught the only person you can trust is yourself.

Atsushi learned how to survive a point system that never rewarded him. He would do other kids chores, take their punishments in exchange for food.

He was raised in hell and it meant that he learned to survive by any means necessary.

Atsushi stops Junichiro and passes his entrance exam because Dazai and Kunikida were kind to him. They gave him food, shelter and saved him when no one else ever has.

He doesn’t get involved until they’re put in danger. In his eyes he was paying them back for it and the job was completely unexpected.

Obviously Atsushi accepts because where else was he gonna go with no qualifications and an ability he can’t control.

He does pay Kunikida back for the 30 bowls of tea on rice even if the other says he doesn’t need too.

As if not paying his debts ever felt like an option to him.

Atsushi doesn’t think he’s a good person. He follows the law because the Agency (sometimes) does. He helps protect the city because the Agency does.

And working with the Agency gives him shelter and money so that he can eat and thus live.

Atsushi doesn’t think he belongs with them. He’s a coward and in the end he only really looks out for himself. In his eyes he’s not a good person.

Definitely not someone worth their kindness nor their belief and trust.

When the Port Mafia comes for his bounty he runs off without a second thought. He only comes back because Kunikida calls him to come help with the clean up.

Atsushi just silently sweeps up debris dodging the questions demanding to know where he was.

He doesn’t get why they don’t just sell him out. Sure they can clearly handle the Port Mafia but the bounty would be useful to them all.

It’s not like he’s worth keeping around. Certainly not for Dazai to let himself get kidnapped for.

He’s just another ungrateful mouth to feed as the Heasmaster would call him.

And he’s not wrong because Atsushis whole life has been spent trying to survive to his next day that actually being able to live his life feels weird to him.

He doesn’t really know how too. He had no dreams ot aspirations. He never thought he’d live long enough to escape the orphanage.

Maybe he should just hand himself over? Take the cash and dip while the others use his wage for something far more useful.

Maybe find someone worth keeping around.

But Atsushi doesn’t.

Because as times go on he starts to realise that not only does the Agency care about him. But that he cares for them too.

He likes watching Dazai and Kunikida bicker. He feels a sense of comfort when Yosano asks if he’s okay. When Ranpo tells him that he did a good job.

But the real kicker is when Atsushi meets Kyouka because all his instincts scream that he should run.

But he doesn’t.

Because Yosano is counting on him to protect the trains civilians. And he doesn’t want to let her down.

Kyouka Izumi is not a civilian.

Kyouka Izumi has a bomb strapped to her chest and has killed 35 people and will probably kill him too.

The Agency might be disappointed if he took her out but they’d understand.

But Atsushi has no reason to save her, for god’s sake he can’t even save himself how can he possibly help her?

So why does he look into her eyes and see himself. He sees a survivor, he sees someone who won’t fight him back because living was never an option for her.

Well who decides that?

Who decides whether or not if a person deserves to live or die? He didn’t think he deserved too and yet he was saved.

To live your whole life thinking such a thing…isn’t living at all. Atsushi wouldn’t wish such a thing even on his worst enemy.

“I don’t want to kill anyone else”

He moves without a second thought and the next thing he knows is he’s in the Agencies infirmary.

“Why did you bring her here?”

“I don’t know! Because you told me that we help people. And she…she needed help.”

He can barely understand it himself and yet the look Kunikida gives him is both exasperated and proud.

“So you finally admit it then. Hmm, I’ll speak to the President and we’ll go from there.”

“Admit what?”

“That you’re a member of the Armed Detective Agency. You’ve finally accepted that you’re one of us.”

Oh.

Oh he did, didn’t he?

And it felt right.

And so Atsushi makes himself a promise.

That if the Agency wants him to be kind then he’ll be kind. If the Agency wants him to fight then he’ll give it everything he’s got.

If the Agency wants him to sacrifice his life he’ll do so without question.

Because Atsushi doesn’t know how to live for himself so he’ll live for them.

And if they care for this city and all those within it then he’ll treasure it.

BSD x MHA (cause it's been in the brain for a bit)

Mainly focused on SSKK and, surprisingly, Yaomomo.

The usual doozy of BSD!timeline being centuries before MHA!timeline, and SSKK somehow find themselves way into the future with little to know knowledge on how to return back home. So, for now, they gotta ride time. And thankfully, since they're in the future, it won't change time.

Cue Atsushi and Akutagawa going through the ropes of learning this world and evidently getting into UA High School.

But amongst the many students that were their peers, one catches Aktuagawa's eye, mostly because of how uncanny she looks compared to his sister Gin.

Yaoyorozu Momo, their class vice representative.

Fast forward, they as well as a few other students went to Yaoyorozu's estate to get some help for exams, which the ravenette happily offered her help. Of course, Akutagawa or Atsushi were fine, they've read a whole lot before joining UA High School (to understand this timeline) and are a bit knowledgable, so they were there for support and side-tutoring. (Unless it was math, they're useless when it comes to it). Finding some time, Atsushi and Akutagawa was able to wander around and explore the house, his permission happily granted by Yaoyorozu. And after a bit of wandering, he finds himself in a hallway full of portraits. A gallery wall, of sorts.

Without realizing, they began walking down, seeing the portraits of family after family, their names and dates imprinted proudly on plaques.

But upon coming towards the end, there was no picture nor plaque, just mere newspaper clippings and blurry photos.

"They were the very first generation of our family lineage." A voice suddenly calls, making both Atsushi and Akutagawa turn their head to see a a woman with platinum blonde hair walking up to them.

"They don't have pictures?" Atsushi asked, confused.

"We don't know," admits the woman. "Most of the beginnings of our family are shrouded in mystery that not even the oldest of history books could shed some light on their lives. And the closest we could to know their identities are the clippings and photos before you."

And that's what is causing the pair much confusion. Familiar newspaper clippings told of a hero that saved the city from certain disaster. Blurred pictures of a shadowed figure in alleyways.

It's them.

my new favorite hermitcraft chat message

I saw this tweet and was like 'yep, that's atsushi'

Chapter 15

Happy valentine's day!! :9

bring back tumblr ask culture let me. bother you with questions and statements

Being non-binary is like instead of having an angel and a demon on ur shoulder u have a faggot and a dyke

i NEED Grian to go full psychological horror on the hermits with the permit office. i need multiple layers of permit waiting rooms each that plays a more distorted and unsettling version of the please hold music as you go deeper, I need there to be a constant static buzzing being played I need the lights to flicker, I need grian to stand ominously at the end of hallways just to disappear behind a corner

one time i dreamt that teen dazai was living with oda for some reason and oda was like ‘hey u can bring/buy anything’ and he meant like things for his room maybe even a pet if dazai really wanted one but dazai was walking around and found a little white cat but it ran away from him so he kept looking until he met a little orphan who looked like the cat to him so he brought him home and thats how oda met atsushi

atsushi learns to take care of long hair via kyouka - he's watched her do her hair and has helped her do it enough that he's pretty okay with it now

one day, kunikida's hair just keeps on slipping out of his pony tail and atsushi, noticing his frustrations, offers to brush it and tie it for him

he enjoys doing kyouka's hair, dont get me wrong, but he thought it was just a kyouka only thing - after all how could atsushi not want to do things for kyouka who was like a sister and who deserved help or assistance in small things if she so asked - atsushi didn't realize how much he was doing it to show his own affection for her

he finds as he's brushing hair, that its just a way he's been showing kyouka he likes her and now w/ kunikida

anyway atsushi ends up braiding kuni's hair while he's working, and is buzzing with this newfound understanding of another way he can show affection

and with the comb tightly in his hand he asks if anyone else would like him to brush his hair, as nonchalantly as he can

naomi takes one look at his tail wagging, w/ atsushi unaware, and says yeah sure and lets him brush her hair and tie it up

she even tells him to brush juni's hair - which isn't long at all but its still fun

the next day yosano asks atsushi if he could tie up her hair and even ranpo lets him brush it back once

slowly atsushi works his way through everyone in the agency

other than dazai

atsushi offers his services to dazai too

but dazai always refuses - he jokes about atsushi only not doing his hair and when atsushi says he will, dazai gets weirdly quiet and changes the topic after a minute

anyway

atsushi does end up doing dazai's hair, not just brushing, but washing and drying and pushing it out of his face, but its on one of those weeks where dazai cant bring himself to even get out of bed and atsushi decides to take care of him instead

anyway thank you person who said atsushi wants to braid kunikida's hair i love u

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also atsushi doing gin's hair and akutagawa walking in is a funny image in my head

gin atsushi friendship >>>>>>>>>>>>>

gin atsushi friendship while akutagawa doesn't even know his sisters besties w/ his crush enemy and walks in on them having spa days and talking shit about akutagawa

shit as in "dumbass doesn't even know im in love with him" "my brother doesn't even know he's in love with you he's a special type of stupid"