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the posts on my dash are talking to each other

atsushi: ryuu :(

akutagawa: what

atsushi: have u seen my shirt? my favorite one? i cant find it - my jackets gone too

akutagawa, wrapped tightly in a blanket: why would i know

atsushi: i mean u borrow them every now and then-

akutagawa: i've done no such thing

atsushi:

akutagawa:

atsushi: ryuu take off the blanket

akutagawa: no

I like to hc that some kids in the Orphanage, maybe the older ones, were kind to Atsushi.

That they'd take the fall if they could knowing they'd get off way easier than him.

They all hate that they can recognise Atsushi from his screams alone.

They were warned, of course they were from the Headmaster and other staff.

That boy is no good.

But they'd all nod politely and shake their heads once alone.

Because the Headmaster was wrong.

Atsushi was a sweet kid. They'd make room for him to sit down, slipping a piece of bread into his shaking hands.

The staff never bothered to teach him even though they made him sit in all the lessons.

These kids would cobble their notes together and teach him how to read and write.

They were the only people to ever see his smile, to hear him laugh.

Those small moments of light kept Atsushi going.

And the day those kids left, having aged out the system they would gave him their numbers, sneak letters to him which kept him going.

Unfortunately because the Headmaster had adopted Atsushi, they couldn't take him with them which they would all regret.

But they'd never realise just how much they helped Atsushi.

The first thing he did when Dazai gave him his phone was call them.

Atsushi who tears up in suprise snd and overhelming relief and joy when every single one of them remember his name.

Atsushi remembers the abuse of the Orphanage, the cruelty of the Headmaster that's scarred him in ways even Byakko can't heal.

But he also remembers the kids who showed him kindness.

The people who looked at him and saw he was worth saving, worth love and support.

And Atsushi vowed he'd be that person to others, be the light in their darkness.

Because no one deserved to suffer alone.

Found this on Pinterest, but count this screenshot as a reblog

For those of you who may not be too familiar with the manga, during ch39: Portrait of a Father, Akutagawa shows up, as Dazai's informant, to give Atsushi documents about who the orphanage headmaster was and what happened to him.

At that moment, Akutagawa shows an uncharacteristic clemency towards Atsushi, saying that "Atsushi's master died today", and compares this to his own relationship with Dazai.

This was a long time ago now, and a lot has happened since. The Cannibalism arc is right after this, where they are very antagonistic towards each other, and includes this scene:

Akutagawa, despite his bitterness towards Atsushi for who he is to Dazai, has seen how similar they are in this sense. Atsushi hasn't, because his gratefulness towards Dazai prevents him from seeing that Akutagawa's experience was completely different with this same person. (he's also not given any time by the narrative to wonder about it)

but then just came along chapter 122!!!

Atsushi gets to see, 1:1, the relationship between Akutagawa and Dazai. For the first time, Akutagawa is relatable to him.

And of course, at the end, Atsushi calls out the illusion as being the headmaster wearing Dazai's face because we are closing this loop! We are forcing Atsushi to see Akutagawa the same way Akutagawa has been seeing him!

see no evil, speak no evil, hear no evil ❌

People thinking Atsushi is just a cute lil soft boy are so WRONG.

Atsushi is one of the best executed C-PTSD protagonists who are not just "kind" because they are the MC.

Atsushi is sassy, he is mean and says things like they are, even to his own mentor Dazai, he is not afraid of saying bad things. He doesn't hold back on his words. And he can be quite quick when it comes to using sass ("are you a landmower?" "Why are you dressed like a half-finished mummy, Dazai-san" "Akutagawa, fancy a cup of tea?" "That's why Dazai-san left you")

He's not just nice. He thinks he should be nice and kind because that's what someone like him should be like. Atsushi has such a low self esteem that he NEEDS to show kindness to everyone because he thinks just like he got a second chance at life, everyone else deserves it too.

That's why he saved Kyouka and Lucy, he recognised that want for bettering themselves in them. He wanted them to get a second chance like he did. Because to him, people are not good or bad, but they have the ability to change no matter how far they have gone.

This is why Atsushi is the only one who can recognise and understand Dazai's true personality. Whenever Dazai says something self depreciating Atsushi ALWAYS corrects him. In Dead Apple when Dazai is visiting Oda's grave, Atsushi understands whoever this person was, they were very dear to Dazai. At the end of Dead Apple when Dazai says he thinks he's not a good person, Atsushi tells him he has never thought of Dazai not being a good person. Atsushi knows Dazai was in the Port Mafia, but he STILL confirms he sees Dazai as a good person regardless of his past. Because Atsushi believes in second chances, and HE gave the second chance to Dazai that Oda must have wanted Dazai to get, even if the ADA accepted Dazai, no one has ever reassured him being a good person before. (Also in BSD wan, when Dazai says "I want to go out beautifully" during the fireworks scene, in the end-credits Atsushi sits near the river the entire day because he was sad that Dazai was suicidal. And in BSD mayoi, Dazai makes a snowman of Atsushi along with Oda, Ango and Chuuya, showing how much he adored Atsushi)

It's the same with Akutagawa; Atsushi doesn't understand why Akutagawa hates him and he's mean to Akutagawa at times but it never crossed a line. Akutagawa had done so many bad things to Atsushi but at the end they still worked together. Because Dazai understood the only person who will make Akutagawa use his powers to "protect" instead of "attack" is Atsushi. During the ending fight in S3, Akutagawa makes an armour for Atsushi as they combine their powers. And in the end credit scene of S5, we see Akutagawa protecting Atsushi AGAIN. This time Akutagawa isn't wearing the same coat Dazai gave him and for the first time shows true loyalty to Atsushi. ("Just the two of us?" "Do we need more?" *SCREAMS*)

Atsushi's relationship with the headmaster of the orphanage shows how much the trauma affected him as a child. When he can't forgive the headmaster at his death, he hates himself for not being able to give a second chance. And that's when Dazai steps in and tells him, "we cry when our father dies" something Atsushi really needs to hear and he finally cries.

Atsushi reassures Dazai all the time and Dazai snaps Atsushi out of his self depreciation all the time. Their solidarity throughout the story, shows why that day when Dazai chose Atsushi for the ADA; he recognised not Atsushi's powerful ability but his true ability in choosing to believe in people when no one else can.

atsushi learns to take care of long hair via kyouka - he's watched her do her hair and has helped her do it enough that he's pretty okay with it now

one day, kunikida's hair just keeps on slipping out of his pony tail and atsushi, noticing his frustrations, offers to brush it and tie it for him

he enjoys doing kyouka's hair, dont get me wrong, but he thought it was just a kyouka only thing - after all how could atsushi not want to do things for kyouka who was like a sister and who deserved help or assistance in small things if she so asked - atsushi didn't realize how much he was doing it to show his own affection for her

he finds as he's brushing hair, that its just a way he's been showing kyouka he likes her and now w/ kunikida

anyway atsushi ends up braiding kuni's hair while he's working, and is buzzing with this newfound understanding of another way he can show affection

and with the comb tightly in his hand he asks if anyone else would like him to brush his hair, as nonchalantly as he can

naomi takes one look at his tail wagging, w/ atsushi unaware, and says yeah sure and lets him brush her hair and tie it up

she even tells him to brush juni's hair - which isn't long at all but its still fun

the next day yosano asks atsushi if he could tie up her hair and even ranpo lets him brush it back once

slowly atsushi works his way through everyone in the agency

other than dazai

atsushi offers his services to dazai too

but dazai always refuses - he jokes about atsushi only not doing his hair and when atsushi says he will, dazai gets weirdly quiet and changes the topic after a minute

anyway

atsushi does end up doing dazai's hair, not just brushing, but washing and drying and pushing it out of his face, but its on one of those weeks where dazai cant bring himself to even get out of bed and atsushi decides to take care of him instead

anyway thank you person who said atsushi wants to braid kunikida's hair i love u

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also atsushi doing gin's hair and akutagawa walking in is a funny image in my head

gin atsushi friendship >>>>>>>>>>>>>

gin atsushi friendship while akutagawa doesn't even know his sisters besties w/ his crush enemy and walks in on them having spa days and talking shit about akutagawa

shit as in "dumbass doesn't even know im in love with him" "my brother doesn't even know he's in love with you he's a special type of stupid"

Dead apple but everyone is still in their pajamas

I think it would be funny if everyone collectively just didnt care to change in to their work clothes for the plot of dead apple cause imagine Chuuya fighting that big ass dragon still in his dog themed pajama pants 🐶

Do you have any beast sskk hcs?

weekly movie theater dates

r more likely to bottle up issues w/ each other than mainuniverse sskk (until they work on it) when they start dating (as in less likely to admit the other person said something hurtful)

in true sskk fashion, atsushi is more like himself with aku than anyone else -- in this case more gentle

coffee dates

aku helps atsushi gradually live w/o his collar

the tiger is less friendly in general but super friendly with akutagawa

rashomon is also very gentle w/ atsushi

at some point atsushi just gets up and leaves yokohama (and the orphanage) and everyone he knows to deal with Everything and the only person who knows where he is is aku (and ranpo)

beast!atsushi is generally more soft spoken and calm than main universe atsushi and will go forever just not talking --- so sskk will be together and neither of them will talk

sskk date nights where they just do their own thing w/o acknowledging the other person

they dont move into atsushi's apartment, they get one together where there's room for atsushi to plant a garden (theres a fic about beast atsushi liking plants that is True to me)

akutagawa hates dazai but he never comments on the few things atsushi keeps as a reminder of him and always goes with him to visit his grave on the anniversary of his death

atsushi has a house husband moment during his self discovery phase