I Feel Blue

I feel blue

I feel like a blue beam that emits bits of teal and cream

I feel like my source is hot pink

And it’s burns so bright that it appears white

I feel like my innards are exploding

so Over zealous with joyful energy that I can feel the protons and electrons dividing and multiplying

I can feel my muscles twitch and stretch warming up to a pinkish mauve and contorting into a lavender that drips with burnt blood

Blue

I am feeling blue

Deep deep oceans shades of shimmering mournful illustrious blue

I am feeling like a galaxy

Like a corner of a galaxy

Like the bend of the edge of a galaxy

Turning into the newest movement of the century

I am feeling

A revolution of feelings

I am feeling like something the English language cannot put into words

I am feeling endless and contained

Somersaults

Bommerangs

And aquamarine tangerines

I am feeling blue

But when I look in the mirror

I’m not feeling like anything other than...

My name

I see me

And I see what the world sees

And then I don’t feel like me anymore

Blue became a body

It became skin flesh and bones

Blue is

Not me

I am

Not blue

I am

....

Just because they were with you through your depression, doesn’t mean they have to stay with you through your progression.

Some of us stay with people because we don’t want to abandon them at a low point.

Some of us stay with people because we were with them through such low points and now that their doing better we feel like we earned the prize of their growth that came at the end.

Sometimes when we are the depressed and someone sticks with us we feel like we can’t leave because that person was with you when you were your worst.

But we have to evaluate.

If your growth means you have outgrown the relationship, then it’s okay to leave.

If that person was with you at your lowest but you don’t think they can help you reach your highest then it’s okay to bounce.

Part of growth is being able to recognize what you need, and then taking steps to obtain it.

If a person has reached the end of a relationship , then it’s okay to move on.

Don’t worry about being polite.

Worry about what’s best.

If the new you isn’t 100% here then it’s because the new you should be somewhere else.

If you are trying to think of ways to make something work then your ignoring the ease that will come with the right thing in your near future.

Look at the tortoise and the hare.

That bunny got too comfortable , he held himself back. He kept stopping to look at the flowers, take naps, and do eveything but move forward.

And the tortoise!

He may not have gotten there fast but he made it to his destination right on time.he got their right when he was suppose to. He knew where he needed to go and he didn’t let anyone or thing stop him from moving forward.

Now this could be your partner, your job, your friends, your family, your location, your strongholds.

Whatever is holding you back, leave it.

When you see what you could be

When you see where you could be

Once you know that your potential is endless

Don’t stop

Take yourself to the end.

The world will keep moving forward with or without you. But where do you wanna be ? Still holding onto something at the starting line, or jumping through the valleys of freedom and possibilities at the finish?

Let go

What is meant to be will be.

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nova-rose-greene

6 years ago

Im a 90s baby, a 2000s teen, and a now N*gga

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nova-rose-greene

6 years ago