I Have This Silly Little Feeling In My Chest That's Making Me Want To Die

Me this Wee..

I cant get up without getting spliting headache and vertigo :///

HAVE STUFF TO DO.I want to like be physical and active and keep myself healthy but I took a 30 minute walk 2 days ago right I try to take daily walks and 1 had to lay in bed all day after becuse I was so freaking exhausted. A 30 minute walk. I literally just wondered aroundddd guyyss

"Oh my fine!" Yeah please excuse me while I go did through my mother's medicine cabinet to collect pills and stick a pencil sharpener into my leg.

Please excuse me while I struggle with major depressive disorder, post partum depressive disorder, low support asd, inattentive adhd, bpd, cptsd, multiple anxiety disorders, panic disorder, ocd, gender dysphoria, wanting to kms, cvutting myself, and thinking everything i do is wrong and everyone hates me

But im fine and here for you!!

every year i reach new lows and wish i killed myself earlier

Sorry for going through every emotion known to man within an hour

It will probably happen again

:3

I didn’t plan to be here so I don’t know how to be here

Haha

Real

You ask why I didn't reply to your text

I wanted too

But the weight of a conversation felt impossible to carry

You ask why I dont text back

I tried too

But I was scared id say the wrong thing

You ask why I never tell you things

I want to

But im scared you'll hate me for everything I do

You ask why I dont talk

I tried too

The words couldnt seem to come out

You ask why I dont wanna be your friend

I want to

But I couldnt handle you leaving

So I left first