Let-me-leave-this-place00 - Welp

Kill meeee i cant do this shitttt its all to much

i wasn't meant to live this long and that's why i don't know what to do when i feel this awful

growing up is terrifying i wasn’t supposed to make it this far and now my future depends on me and i have to make wise choices and decisions and i’m just sitting here like a clueless little kid

Please excuse me while I struggle with major depressive disorder, post partum depressive disorder, low support asd, inattentive adhd, bpd, cptsd, multiple anxiety disorders, panic disorder, ocd, gender dysphoria, wanting to kms, cvutting myself, and thinking everything i do is wrong and everyone hates me

But im fine and here for you!!

Wilted Flowers

They’re pretty, but I’m afraid to touch them— I know they’ll crumble the moment I do.

I think they’re beautiful. Beautiful because they don’t last. Beautiful because they’re broken.

And I like shattered glass: the way it reflects anything you shine on it, the way I can see myself in the pieces— not whole, but fragmented.

I know I’ll bleed when I reach to touch it, drip the contents of my heart across smooth faces and edges that seldom forget.

And I like coffee. I drink it with cream to soften the bitterness. But I never add sugar— too much sweetness makes me sick.

It keeps me up when I should be asleep, telling secrets I should’ve kept, dreading the grinds at the bottom of the cup.

But I guess some things aren’t meant to be held for long— they bruise, or cut, or run out the moment you reach out to hold them.

I don’t mind so much.

Because wilted flowers aren’t soft... but they are pretty.

The fear of abandonment isn’t just about people leaving, it’s the gut-wrenching belief that you aren’t worth staying for.

Why do I feel this bad

My parents are okay people

I have money

Education

Everything everyone wants

So why do I still feel this shitty

How about both 😎

Pfft physical pain? Have you ever tried having bpd