HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE BOYS EVER 💕

Atsushi and Akutagawa just cuddling, well TRYING TO CUDDLE

Idk but like I have this one idea that anytime when Atsushi starts to feel like strong positive emotions that tiger is gonna kick in thus I can see him being very careful with Akutagawa with that happens 😂 idk why but it be funny if Akutagawa was just thinking in head going HOLD ME LIKE YOU MEAN it or something

i like to think that Atsushi can faintly smell people coming,

he can smell some green tea whenever Kyoka walks by, the sickly sweet candy smell Ranpo reeks of whenever he pops out of nowhere, and sometimes even a faint smell of white lillies of Dazai every now and then

with that being said, he can easily recognise smells he deems safe (safe being the agency) and smells that make him more alert, so he doesn't get jumpscared when an enemy suprises him, but could jump 40ft into the air if Kenji walks up behind him

let the tiger also be a part of the agency dammit

Bridges Burned (Part I)

First part of the Atsushi-centric prequel to Build Upon The Ruins. For @zigur.

Rating: T Words: 5,600 Warnings: past child abuse.

Bridges Burned Part I

One of the Headmaster’s favorite things to say about Atsushi was that he destroyed everything he touched.

It wasn’t one of his lessons, exactly; he never applied it to Atsushi’s mind with more than brief, dismissive words, never carved it into Atsushi’s back with belt or stick. "You destroy everything, boy,“ he would simply say. And he would look at him with profound disgust and leave.

So Atsushi figured that this was one rule he could circumvent with time. He broke breakable things, yes, because his hands shook often; he stepped over fragilities, indeed, in his attempts to cower and flee; but these were not things he attributed to himself as much as to the Headmaster, who was the source of the flight and who was the source of the shakes.

Atsushi thought: Once I am out of here, I won’t shake anymore.

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akutagawa: i do not know jinko. i know nothing about him. I do not even know how when he laughs too much he has to lean against something. or that his eyes have a little bit of orange, where the yellow and purple meet. I do not know about his mole on the bottom of his neck. nor do i know that he drinks his coffee really sweet. i do not know that he clips his nails short to not scratch anyone but really likes the illusion guy's sister's longer nails and wishes he could grow his own out a little. i do not know that he likes being outside in various weathers to get to experience them. i do not know ANYTHING about that damned jinko and if you DARE imply that i do again i WILL slit your throat

when people draw atsushi with a phone they always give him an iphone or just a phone with a touchscreen and it hurts my heart so much. we have to stop ignoring his little flip phone. he doesn't need social media either we have to keep him as chronically offline as possible. atsushi doesn't know what discourse is. if you showed him a meme he'd stare at it for a bit and go "i don't get it" while handing the phone back to you. when he sat in front of an agency laptop for the first time he holds his head in his hands because he doesn't know what the hell to do

YESSSS to the"feel strongly, that's what you do when you want to experience the past". atsushi's hallucinations mentioned by fake dazai YAY next month has to be about atsushi's ptsd PLSSS (also, AWWW atsushi's expressions when he's overwhelmed😭 i want to hug him)

i think a lot about how atsushi sleeps in kyouka's closet. like. boy did you need a den. did you need a little tiger den

headcanon that atsushi is obsessed with blankets and can often be found wrapped in like six of them

OH MY GOD ANON I SUPPORT YOU 100%. THIS BOY NEEDS ALL THE BLANKETS IN THE WORLD.

• Back at the orphanage it was rare for Atsushi to be shown any sort of physical affection, and he was regularly found hiding in dark corners or inside his closet to avoid the abusive staff members. It’s only when he gets to the Agency that he starts sleeping in an actual bed – and a comfortable one at that!! For the first few weekends when Atsushi gets some time off, he’ll just roll up under his covers of his futon and stay there for days. • When he has nightmares or there are times where he is reminded of his past, Atsushi pulls his blankets around his body and cocoons himself in the warmth they offer, the comfort of the soft sheets reminding him that that isn’t his life anymore and he’s allowed to feel warm and safe. • When he’s sick he’ll walk around the house wrapped in a huge fluffy duvet and just rest on the sofa all day until he feels well enough to work again. • Cuddling Atsushi under the blankets would be 👌🏻👌🏻👌🏻• He’s like a human radiator oh my god can you imagine the purring • LET THIS BOY FEEL LoVE DAmn iT

Since Atsushi is a cat I think Dazai would want to communicate on his level :D family bonding time