Atsushi And Akutagawa Just Cuddling, Well TRYING TO CUDDLE

precanon dazai taking in an orphan but atsushi's a fully feral preteen like biting, growling, etc etc

i love your blog can you write about atsushi being feverish sick or hc about it? sorry if i have poor English.

thank you so much!! and no worries your english is great!! I'm writing a fevered atsushi sickfic for Sicktember under the "Persistent Fever" prompt that I'm very much enjoying writing so far hehe...

- atsushi definitely has a lot of problems speaking up when he doesn't feel well or just recognizing that he need to slow down because of how he grew up. he has some pretty serious anxiety so when he doesn't feel good he either gets all in his head about or he doesn't realize it

- he gets low grade fevers often when he gets overly stressed out/exhausted/overworking

- kyoka and lucy have learned to keep an eye on him while he's working because he tends not to realize when he has a fever until it gets really bad

- kyoka is very sweet about making sure he looks after himself and lucy scolds the ever loving shit out of him

- sometimes they don't notice in time and he passes out :( they have to take him to the infirmary and keep a good eye on him to make sure he rests

- he's very prone to hallucinations and nightmares when he has high fevers 🥺 he'll turn over in his sleep, shake and breathe heavy and whimper, sweat through the sheets, and wake up sobbing and desperate for comfort

- atsushi is terrified of needles so they have to be sneaky when yosano needs to give him injections. dazai is a pro at distracting him but sometimes atsushi is just so out of it that he doesn't notice. sometimes his fever is so high that he's completely delusional and becomes terrified of yosano💔 he's accidentally hurt her in the past with his ability and they've learned to keep dazai handy to prevent that

- kyoka has to take him home when he's really not doing well because he's sensitive to the antiseptic smell in the infirmary and it makes him very nauseous, and he's very emetophobic so they try to avoid that as much as possible

- everyone in the ADA looks after him very well and sometimes he cries and wonders what he did to deserve their love and care 😭

my babey.

Portrait Of a Father(?)

I think we can all agree that this is the most controversial chapter in the whole manga. We can’t agree on what its message is, if we are supposed to agree with it, what Asagiri wanted us to think about the characters involved … So, I finally decided to jump in the lion pit and put forward my opinions on it.

I’ll start with a brief recap: Atsushi finds out that the Headmaster of his orphanage, the one who tormented him, is dead. His reaction is … well, if he had been legal for drinking, he would have rushed to buy champagne. A fitting reaction, considering what we have already seen of the Headmaster at this point.

But then we get a shocking revelation: the Headmaster died in a car accident while going to buy flowers for Atsushi, to congratulate him on his successes with the Agency and his great work in saving the whole city. Atsushi is shocked, because … seriously? Eighteen years of abuse, and now he acts like he has always cared about him?

And he expresses his conflicted emotions with a likewise erratic behavior: he runs off from Tanizaki, tries to have a cathartic fight with Akutagawa (who ignores him exactly because of his state of mind), goes to his old orphanage to attend the funeral from a distance, and lastly wanders off to see some conveniently placed families with attentive fathers and young sons.

At this point, Dazai reaches him. And here starts the really controversial part.

They examine together the Headmaster’s background: he appearently grew up in the same orphanage, but at a time when it had even worse conditions, enough to make Atsushi’s time under his education ‘look like heaven’ in comparison. When he got out alongside some other orphans, he quickly fell into a life of crime; then they all got drafted into the Great War, and saw his friends die one by one, until he was the only one left standing. 

This left him with an huge unaddressed trauma and the convinction that his determination and will to live, acquired in spite of hardships, were the only reasons he survived; so he decided to dedicate himself to raising the next generation of orphans according to these principles, creating a system where the priority would have been survival at all costs. 

And the narration, through Dazai, sorts of portrays him positively for that. Attention is brought to how he was tortured worse than Atsushi did, how the fierce mindset underneath Atsushi’s meekness was grown by his treatment of him. If the Headmaster never did so, would Atsushi be so attached to life? Would he have not succumbed to self-loathing?

To answer this, I’ll take the liberty to give first my own analysis, and then consider what the manga probably wants me to answer.

Yes, if the Headmaster had not been abusive, Atsushi would have survived. Much better, I’d add. It is mentioned that Atsushi was nearly killed at his orphanage, more that one time, and let’s remember that he has one hell of an healing factor. If he had been a normal kid, chances are that he wouldn’t have survived … which, besides begging the question of how on earth the Headmaster’s own time at the orphanage could have been worse than attempted and nearly successful murder, makes one wonder how exactly it’s supposed to be formative for the kid.  

Then, the Headmaster is given the credit to have prevented Atsushi’s self-loathing for being a tiger, by becoming himself the object of his hatred. What a martyr. The problem with his reasoning is, that is all the damn story that we see Atsushi have an huge issue with self-loathing! And it isn’t even related to the tiger, most of the times! There are moments where he’s shocked and scared after he went overboard with his power, but the main sources of his problems, the flashbacks that plague him? They’re about his time at the orphanage. 

He regularly remembers, and even has allucinations of, the Headmaster and the other members of the staff calling him worthless, good for nothing, pathetic, unworthy to live, and all sorts of pleasantries of this kind. When he allucinates the Headmaster, that nasty voice in his head is the one who tells him to quit, to give up, that he’s not good enough and he shouldn’t even try to do something with his life. 

Of course, at this point we could rigirare la frittata saying that it’s what the Headmaster meant, to make Atsushi stronger by giving him someone to rebel against … but honestly? There are thousands of better, different ways to teach someone to value their own life. If the Headmaster, given his traumas, couldn’t think of one, then it’s his own damn fault for not realizing that he couldn’t be a good teacher or caretaker before a lot of therapy, and not taking a different life path. 

The one who gives his all despite his insecurities is Atsushi. The one who is willing to face down powerful enemies in desperate battles for the sake of a city he has come to love is Atsushi. The one that didn’t wield to despair and self loathing, pushing forward each and every time, that’s Atsushi. The Headmaster doesn’t have a shred of merit in this. 

Now, time to take a guess at authorial intent. And this is … tricky, that is, for the very simple reason that I can’t get into Asagiri’s head and extract the intended correct interpretations from the multiple possibilities. All I can do is propose the most likely, based on what I can read.

The first possible interpretation: the most obvious. We are meant to take that scene and its message as it is. The Headmaster did terrible things, but he also helped Atsushi in his growth. Our boy wouldn’t be half as strong if he hadn’t already experienced severe abuse, and he’s really got to cry the death of his father figure. Bacia la mano che ruppe il tuo naso perchè le chiedevi un boccone. 

Another possible interpretation is that it’s an acknowledgement of the fact that people are complicated, and it’s fine to have complicated feelings towards them. Warped as he was, the Headmaster truly believed that he was doing what was better for Atsushi. Isn’t it horrible to confront the fact that the person who abused you is not a cardboard villain with nothing inside, but instead a very complex human being who had a ‘benevolent’, if not logically sound, reasoning behind them? Atsushi is not in a good situation: on the one hand, he can’t forgive the Headmaster for what he did to him, but on the other, he can’t ignore the fact that he did it out of “care” for him (wheter of not it did him any good). He, who had repeatedly been told that he was worthless and undeserving, he had been the object of care all along! What’s one to do in such a situation?

Atsushi doesn’t know either. There is no manual with the instruction for the right emotions and reactions to have. 'Quando a mio padre si fermò il cuore' ... magari avessi semplicemente non provato dolore. He ends up looking at Dazai with that face, a very forced smile in the uncertainty about how else to react. And Dazai just gives his comment about people crying when their father dies, and Atsushi does exactly that. This is already a kinder interpretation: Dazai made it clear that Atsushi could react however he felt better, but he understood that the kid felt like crying, and gave him an implicit okay to do so. It was a way to help Atsushi express his emotions, bypassing the blocks that the Headmaster himself had put on the road. And personally, I suspect that it gets the closest to authorial intent, because of the emphasis on ‘finding a will to live despite one’s trauma’ has already been established as a central theme of the manga.

A third interpretation put as much focus on Dazai as it does on Atsushi. Dazai is the one who reaches to Atsushi and all but call the Headmaster’s violence ‘necessary’, defining him as Atsushi’s ‘father’. And we already know that Dazai is no stranger to violence as a teaching method; just ask Akutagawa. His treatment of the young mafioso - beatings, calling him worthless, even an attempted execution - is strikingly similar to how the Headmaster raised Atsushi.

And sure, Dazai’s got his promise to Odasaku, be a better person, stay on the path that protects the weak, but these are the ideals he picked up in his formative years in the mafia. It’s likely that he can recognize that his treatment of Akutagawa was wrong, but on some level, he thinks himself as justified: it was how you taught a kid to live in a cruel world, the same reasoning of the Headmaster. He still has his violent tendencies: remember the famous slap he gave Atsushi?

I’m not sure whether he still stands by this ‘educational system’ or not. He hasn’t expressed any explicit regret over how he treated Akutagawa, but he made a point of treating Atsushi in a very different way. He still gave that slap, but that could have been a moment of ‘regression’: a situation in which he needed an Atsushi on top of his game ASAP, couldn’t figure out how to calm him down properly, and fell back on doing what he knew: teaching through violence and harsh words. He expresses no regret over this thing either … but there actually might be, Dazai is a character defined by the fact that he lies to everybody (to his mentees, to his colleagues, to the enemies, to the readers) and so pinning down his true thoughts is very difficult. 

With his answer, he might have projected more than a little in the Headmaster. Maybe what he told Atsushi was a covert way to explain his own actions, to present the point of view of ‘a person who does these things’. Maybe prepare him for an absolution; maybe prepare him to handle disappointment over his mentor’s true nature. Maybe prepare him to recognize himself in Akutagawa, and thus sympathize with him and improving the Shin Soukoku dynamic! Bungou Stray Dogs has pulled bigger levels of insane planning after all. 

Anyway, I find this a pretty interesting interpretation; even if it could have been elaborated upon better, if this is the case. It would show the situation not strictly as a message to the readers, but an analysis of the characters.

Thanks to anyone who bothered to read my ramblings!

Do you think Atsushi has trouble eating peanut butter, you know like how a cat's tongue can't grip Peanut butter?

I SAY YES!!

I think Atsushi does a lot of tiger/cat things!

Actually my most favorite headcanon for him, was put forth by @awkward-atsushi who pointed out that tigers don’t meow, they chuff.

So now Atsushi chuffs like a tiger in my mind.

-MI

Fanfic idea  - Jealous drunken Chuuya x Drunken cat Atsushi

Prompt: As described Atsushi and Chuuya get drunk and comedy ensues

Actual idea- 

So I’m imagining thats its sometime in the future during a cherry blossom viewing.

Everyone is getting drunk and having a great time but cue Atsushi and Chuuya getting drunk.

Turns out a drunken Atsushi acts really silly, like everyone keeps referring to him as a cat and asks him to bring out his tail and ears. Ya know silly stuff but at some point drunken Atsushi just starts acting like complete cat and starts cuddling up to people he likes. You know partially cause he’s drunk and he’s just instinctually scent marking people like an actual cat. 

This all comes to a point where he starts cuddling up to Dazai which triggers the next event.

Which is a jealous drunken Chuuya.

You know in my head Chuuya already found Atsushi to be really cute at the beginning of the night before the tiger ears and tail came out. 

Atusshi is just adorable and Chuuya immediately wants to get to know him more but denies himself since he doesn’t want Dazai to be an ass about it.

Well a few hours later drunken Chuuya gets jealous that the cute weretiger is cuddling up to Dazai. 

Cause ya know Dazai is the worst and in Chuuya’s mind doesn’t deserve to have an adorable creature cuddling up to him and being affectionate. 

So in his drunken jealous wisdom Chuuya thinks its a great idea to go over there and just grab Atsushi and say that Dazai doesn’t deserve to have a cute cat before walking back over to the port mafia side while a confused but still drunk Atsushi just kinda shrugs and continues to act like a cat. 

Just ya know:

Angry drunken Chuuya (clutching Atsushi like a child would a plush toy): “O-oi this cat is mine now! F-fuck off  you Shitty Mackrel!”

Atsushi (who is now slightly confused but unbothered just makes chuffing sounds before cuddling into this new persons neck and nuzzling their cheek like an overly affectionate cat.) 

Does Acchan know of the cookie monster? I feel like he would enjoy the cookie monster or see him as a rival

Baby Acchan LOVES the muppets. They're bright and colorful and soft and fun!

He also immediately goes into stalking behavior anytime Big Bird is on the screen, and Atsushi's had to replace the television twice.

catsushi head butting and cuddling with everyone in the ada and dazai just gets more and more jealous because every time he tries to sit with him or pet his ears they disappear because of no longer human