First part of the Atsushi-centric prequel to Build Upon The Ruins. For @zigur.
Rating: T Words: 5,600 Warnings: past child abuse.
Bridges Burned Part I
One of the Headmaster’s favorite things to say about Atsushi was that he destroyed everything he touched.
It wasn’t one of his lessons, exactly; he never applied it to Atsushi’s mind with more than brief, dismissive words, never carved it into Atsushi’s back with belt or stick. "You destroy everything, boy,“ he would simply say. And he would look at him with profound disgust and leave.
So Atsushi figured that this was one rule he could circumvent with time. He broke breakable things, yes, because his hands shook often; he stepped over fragilities, indeed, in his attempts to cower and flee; but these were not things he attributed to himself as much as to the Headmaster, who was the source of the flight and who was the source of the shakes.
Atsushi thought: Once I am out of here, I won’t shake anymore.
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alternatively to atsushi slow blinking at ppl and confusing them, akutagawa googling cat facts and slow blinking at atsushi out of curiosity and atsushi turning so red he falls over and naturally the ada notice so then dazai slow blinks at him and atsushi blushes so much and only calms down until ranpo does it and so on and so forth then he's so flustered trying to slow blink back at everyone and trying not to pass out from how red he is
the ada has to shut off the lights on their christmas tree in the office during working hours because atsushi will just stare at it for ages if they don't
Lately I’ve been really enamoured with the idea that the tiger is like. a secondary personality in atsushi’s head that he can speak to, and occasionally the living incarnation of gremlin brain
atsushi, grocery shopping: okay so i’ve saved enough coupons to eat this week tiger: fish. eat. consume! atsushi: no, i’m not transforming in the middle of the supermarket so you can go apeshit on the raw fish section. tiger: but….fish prey atsushi: but money can and should be exchanged for goods and services tiger: useless square leaves.
atsushi: smiling is a display of affection, okay? tiger: baring your teeth is a challenge and an invitation to fight or submit atsushi: well, how would you show affection? tiger: slow blink to display trust. rub scent glands against them. chuff. curl around to share warmth. atsushi: that’s– listen I know I had a weird childhood deprived of affection, but I really don’t think that’s how it works. tiger: ….bring prey for them to consume? atsushi: no. i still haven’t been able to look Kunikida in the eyes ever since you left the dead rat on his back porch tiger: was gift. atsushi: he doesn’t eat rats! tiger:…bring mouse? atsushi: you know this would be a lot easier if you didn’t keep suggesting dead animals the rest of the ADA, who’s been watching this one sided exchange go down: 0_0
dazai and atsushi eating a snack together, sitting side by side and atsushi's tail happily wagging (in that slow cat way) and accidentally hitting dazai and thus disappearing and then appearing and wagging again but accidentally hitting dazai and disappearing and then appearing and wagging again but accidentally hitting dazai and then appearing and wagging again but accidentally-
Bite bite bite ●W●
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Silly bsd stuff i would totally write about if i had the ability to put two sentences together:
Ada having a pet fish and having to keep atsushi away
Kenji bringing a cow in to the office and sharing with atsushi as everyone watches in horror
Atsushi playing with dazais bandages after they loosen up on his wrists
Kenji and atsushi making popcorn but instead of using a lid they try to catch the pieces with their mouth jumping around like crazy
Dazai being forced to do his own work coz atsushi started eating his papers
Atsushi knocking kunikidas journal off the table out of feline instinct and kunikida going off on dazai when he cant find it
Fukuzawa and atsushi going on walks together because he wants to feed cats and atsushi attracts them
Atsushi pulling akutagawa aside to confirm if goth people really do wear colorful socks under their boots
Atsushi and akutagawa having tea taste tests once in a while
Atsushi encouraging everyone to drink ceylon tea instead of coffee coz he's extra sensitive to coffe breath thanks to his ability
Dazai telling atsushi that naomi is an ability to fuck with him and atsushi playing along even though he can hear her heartbeat
Atsushi doing dazais paperwork on the days he smells soil on him knowing he was visiting oda
Lucy mostly knowing how to make sweet drinks because she knows atsushi likes them most
Atsushi making sushi for kyouka often after junichiro taught him how to roll a joint and he improvised
Chuuya thinking dazais kid is a fucking weirdo for walking around with the strangest contact lenses casually
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