•★ Started The Fast A Few Hours Ago, Maybe I'll Post B0dy Check Tomorrow. Love Ya ★•

•★ I want to listen to someone new. I'm looking for something similar to Mitski/ Alex g/ Lana Del Rey. I need music that will be melancholic in a good way, something that I can get attached to/ relate to. Any suggestions? ★•

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•★ So I tried to throw up today again but after 20 minutes I only got rid of like 1/5 of that I ate. My family will make sure I eat during weekend but I thought that maybe I could throw up after every meal. Unfortunately it's not so easy... ★•

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I have these awful thoughts about eating. I'm scared I'll listen to them and eat and then feel guilty about it again.. ★•★•★•★•★•★•★•★•★

•★ I went shopping with my mom today and it was very stressful for me. She doesn't know about my $h scars and I was trying on short sleeves today. The scars on my arm were shown. I was praying for her not to notice and she fortunately didn't but I was extremely stressed. Thank god everything was fine ★•

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•★ I weighted myself today and I'm 46kg. I was hoping for less... I'm still fasting so that's good. If I'll be forced to eat then I'll go throw up everything and go for a walk to burn some calories★•

45 hours of fast and a binge right after coming back home... I feel disgusting