𝐕𝐢𝐤𝐤𝐫𝐚𝐦 𝐁𝐚𝐫𝐧 𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐨𝐧𝐢𝐜 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐜𝐚𝐧𝐨𝐧𝐬___𝟖𝐭𝐡𝐒𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐦𝐞𝐧!𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫

TW:VENT kinda

🐝 anon again... omg i want to go home so bad. i really want to cry. i have really bad anxiety and depression (diagnosed) and i feel like i’m about to go into a spiral again, and it’s really horrible... it is what it is, i’ll be ok. my apologies for dumping this, this might be majorly against your boundaries and if it is i’m so sorry. but yea i’m not doing good... - 🐝 anon

You'll get thru it, okay? Find yourself a safe space or object. For example when I struggled with hallucinations i started sleeping with a plushie that made me feel safe and i also kept telling myself that it'll keep me safe. Maybe find a place or an object and try to do the same.

I wish I was smarter so i could help you, but im afraid i can't. But im still here, so if you want to talk u can send me a message or sumn and I'll try my best.

I accidentally posted an unfinished fic. Gonna go and cry myself to sleep now lol.

Just popping in to see if your alright, you've been gone for a bit, so I wanted to check in. Hope you are.

Take care and drink water.

Thank you for the kind words <3

School has been quite hectic for more than the past month and my personal life just keeps throwing me stuff to mentally deal with. But I am fine, just unable to find the motivation to write.

omg hi, i don’t know if you remember me at all but from what i recall you were my platonic fiancée :) i was so upset when i saw you just disappeared and i tried searching for your account but then i stumbled across this just now, hi :)

OF COURSE I REMEMBER YOU!!! Aww, I'm very sorry for that, but I'm glad you found me again :)). If you want to catch up or something, hit me up haha <3

Hey!

If anyone has ideas or wishes for some 8th member of the sidemen!reader imagines or headcanons please let me know.

All ideas are appreciated 💞

imma start watching some so i can get some going in :D

I hope you enjoy!! I'm working on a lengthy request right now. But I'm always glad to get new ones :)

pspspsps it's me

Heyyy 👋 !!!

I'm sure they're very spicy. I've seen you on @depraved-empress' blog and the content there was indeed 🤌.

this isn’t an request, you’re just my favorite creator rn and i really need to rant to someone who doesn’t know me lol.

for several months i’ve been trying to get my older brother to hang out with me ( sounds stupid I know) but he always comes up with these excuses, and as the stupid person that i am, i thought i could buy him into hanging out with me, like buying him gifts etc even though I’m broke.

Recently he complained ab how he wanted to buy this computer for 700€ and i thought, ‘that’s the same amount in my saving account’. So i bought him the computer and he didn’t say thank you or even acknowledged what i did? And now my very important savings are gone because i’m stupid and such a people’s pleaser.

I guess it kinda hit me that maybe he doesn’t love me, and that i should’ve given up a while ago.

I'm so sorry that he's been and continuing to be such a douche to you. He didn't obviously deserve your savings, but that's done now and we should just leave it behind us :).

It's totally normal that you can't have a perfect relationship with everyone. And even tho it sucks when this applies to you and ur brother, you should let it go for good. It's not as easy in theory for sure, but he doesn't deserve ur time or sadness.

This is a complicated situation and i really don't know how to help you. But i hope talking about it made you feel atleast a little better <3

an imagine where the reader is a famous music artist and her and JJ have been interacting on social media teasing a collab. when they finally get to perform together, they hit it off pretty good and maybe some smut to end it off? I dont know haha, I hope you can do something with this :)

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𝙏𝙝𝙚 𝙡𝙤𝙣𝙜-𝙖𝙬𝙖𝙞𝙩𝙚𝙙 𝙘𝙤𝙡𝙡𝙖𝙗___𝙆𝙨𝙞 𝙭 𝙍𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙚𝙧

Thank you for requesting and being so kind with helping me sweetheart <33!!

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When your manager introduced you to the idea of doing a collab with KSI you only had a brief idea of who he was. You knew he had won some boxing matches some time ago and that he had started his career from YouTube, as you related to the last one your manadger thought that the collab would be a good idea.

"He wants to make song with you and i think it's a good idea. You'll get lots of new audience from the collab, also people would love to see two people who came from youtube and made it big in the music industry do a song together" your manager, Zach explained while toying with a black ink pen in his hands.

"Okay, sure" you nodded and received a content smile from the man across the dark oak table.

Even though JJ had suggested the collab in the first place the two of you never met on real life before the filming of the music video for the song. Mostly because of yours and his busy schedules clashing.

During that time you decided to learn more about him. You watched a few of his youtube videos and were suprised by his comical humor, but also his personality. After getting a little more familiar with him you were even quite sad that you didn't get to spend some time with him in the recording studio.

The upcoming collab was often teased by the both of you. From tweets to moment in youtube videos. So when the public announcement the fans were extremely happy to get the collab they had looked forward to for quite a while.

"Today is the day that we'll be filming the new music video so i had to wake up extra early today" you held up your vlogging camera, voice still a little tired. You always loved filming music videos. It was just so exiting, from the extravagant outfits to the movie-like sets, you loved it all.

As one of the assistants lead you past all the expensive equipment that had been rented for the shoot, the exitment of finally meeting the rapper was starting to bubble in your chest. You saw him from a far and realized that you weren't the only one who had been waken up too early. JJ's face reflected the same tiredness that you had felt since you woke up.

"Oh hey, it's so nice to finally be able to meet you" JJ smiled and put his hand out for you to shake. "Same here" you mirrored the smile and shook his hand. A moment of silence occurred and you senses that he was somehow tense. 'Was he nervous?' You questioned yourself after quickly analyzing his body language.

You were just about to break the silence when your manadger interrupted you: "Here you are! I've been looking for you Y/N! We're behind schedule. Now hurry up, you need to get your makeup done as soon as possible". The man rambled and drugged you away to the hands of your makeup artists.

"I was in the middle of a conversation Zach" you whined as the man sat you down in sable black chair. "Sorry, but like I said, we're behind schedule. You'll get to talk to him after you finish here". And with that Zach left you to the hands of the makeup artists.

The first scene was located in a makeshift abandoned mental hospital and included the both of you. "I'm sorry for leaving like that before" you started the conversations again. "Nah, it's cool." After saying that JJ's mouth went dry. It was weird, him and you knew each other, but also didn't at all. And to be honest he was nervous, especially since he had no idea what to say.

"I really liked your singing parts in the song" he said with a subtle smile. "Thanks, your rap parts were good too. To be honest I was quite surprised when you wanted to collab with me" you chuckled. JJ's mind hadn't even fully processed the compliment yet when he asked in suprise, "Really?". As a response you nodded and let out a light "Yeah".

"Well i thought you had a nice voice and i was impressed by all the genres that you explore with your music" the man explained, slowly getting more used to your presence and breaking out of his shell.

"Thank you again. Umm, well that's why i love producing this much. I can always play around with different sounds and always create something new" you spoke as JJ grinned at the passion in your voice.

"Well, it's sad that you couldn't take much part of the production of this song then" pursed his lips and you shrugged. "I'm glad to be apart of the song with even just my vocals".

"Yeah, I respect your music a lot though. I always try to avoid staying in the same lines with my music, because i don't wanna just stick to the same font for a every song. But you take that to a different level and pull it off very well too" JJ rambled while the crew in the background was getting ready to start filming the first scene of the day.

"Enough of chit chat now, we're going to start with the first scene" the director screamed as his assistant handed him his black coffee. JJ and you giggled as your conversation had been interrupted once again.

"And we're interrupted once again" you laughed. "Yeah, but would you...Want have a meal after the shoot maybe" JJ requested and bit his lip in the moment of uncertainty. "Like a dinner?" you questioned. "I mean yeah, if you'd like to" he continued, grin getting a little cockier.

"I'd love to" you answered and looked into his dark brown orbs, with an exited smile.

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Somebody needs to name my fics instead of me, because I'm absolutely awful at it 💀