I Might Live Life Less Contempt Dead Than In Love With Another Man

sorry for inactivity

work progression has been slow and i honestly js haven’t been doing too well. i’ve had a lot of trauma resurface recently and its been distracting me from getting anything done. ill get back to posting as soon as i can

when im highkey in love w bro but he has the most LETHAL face card ever and im just some dude teaching him piano and having to stare at his hands while i teach him for 30+ min a day is lowkey driving me insane

controversial take : idgaf how much you hate niragi, saying that you'd be (pre borderlands!)niragi's bully and going in depth about how youd beat his ass so bad and going as far as saying you hope he gets SA'd is so fucking weird and disgusting. i dont care how much you hate him, talking abt how badly youd hurt him before he even became terrible is just flat out gross and honestly kinda disrespectful. i dont care how much you hate him, he was somebody's baby once. he didnt want to be the monster until they made him feel like he needed to

Niragi Suguru : A Character Analysis

PRE-INTRO NOTE ! Hey Tumblr, guess who's back on a new account after 2 years since my dumbass accidentally deleted my original acc. What a shame.. Anyways ! I hope you all will enjoy my first work of 2025 ٭ INTRODUCTION Today im doing a character analysis on Niragi Suguru (from Alice in Borderland / 今際の国のアリス, of course). I will be using both series and manga references to get my point across. I've noticed that with the rise of AIB online, there are many strong opinions on characters, 'characters' being Niragi. I often see comments like "I hate Niragi" and "Bullying doesn't justify what he did to Usagi." and fairly, I agree ! I don't think that what Niragi experienced when he was younger gives him a get out of jail free card for every wrongdoing. Though while it isn't an excuse, it is a reason. NIRAGI SUGURU : BASIC CHARACTER BREAK DOWN Niragi Suguru- at first glance he's a violent, overly confident, gun obsessed freak beach executive. Throughout both the manga and series, Niragi has been known to be aggressive, threatening, and an overall asshole. Though, with a little bit of research, his story proves him to be more than just the sadistic villain he's represented as.

In 10 of Hearts / Witch Hunt, (!Manga) Niragi purposely riles up the beach in order to make the game more entertaining for himself. Usagi claims he's not even an animal (as she claimed he was before in the well-known sexual assault scene that I honestly will NOT bother explaining unless necessary). Niragi then replies to this by saying that "It's predisposition- man, left to his own devices.." Niragi mentions something similar to this when he is assaulting Usagi, noting that rape, murder, and other acts of indecency are illegal because they are all part of human nature. This shows us a lot more of his character than most people will even bother to look into. Just by these dialogues, we can tell that Niragi believes we should revel in our true human nature, boasting our human behavior whether it's disgusting or not. PSYCHOLOGY OF NIRAGI SUGURU According to nu.edu, human behavior is learned, affected by the environment one lives in. 'Environment' being this.

Niragi grew up being constantly bullied and abused by his classmates. This had serious effects on his self image and development, these events taking a toll on his behavior even years later in the borderlands. Niragi referencing his bully telling him "I told you targets don't move." during the Witch Hunt. v

His behavior was learned from his bullies, who he mimicked later in life in order to gain self confidence and feel like he was in power. Niragi's actions and behavior were created and carried out in a desperate attempt to feel like he deserved the abuse he endured when he was younger. In season 2, episode 2 of the live action series during King of Clubs / Osmosis, he states the following during a flashback to his childhood; "I don't know if they hated me because I was twisted, or if I became twisted because they hated me." It's proved in the manga that Niragi became twisted because they hated him (Chapter 23)

^ He claims that he'd be miserable unless he changed. He became a terrible person with the intent to feel like he deserved everything that he had to experience prior to his adulthood. He thrives on destroying himself and other people's views of him. "I'm going to make everyone wish they never met me." (Somewhere in season 2..) + "I'll continue living, despised by others. I will continue to incur hate, and hold my head up high as I go to Hell!!" (Chapter 54) Also in chapter 54, he winds up in a church and cites a scripture (?) about Jesus. He says this;

In this scene, I believe Niragi is reflecting on his outcome of experiencing hatred compared to Jesus. Jesus was despised by his peers, which Niragi relates to, as he was bullied relentlessly. Though the thing that separates Jesus from Niragi is that Jesus was loved for years and years after his abuse. Niragi never got that kind of treatment- he had nobody to care for him nor love him. My theory is that he continued to be hated and uncared for even after the bullies were done with him, leading him to believe that he must have been twisted and that's why nobody wanted to help him.

This is what separates Niragi from his peers. Despite acting so terribly, he's separated from his bullies because unlike his bullies he became terrible to feel like he deserved everything. He's different from practically everyone else he knows because of his terribleness. In Chapter 56, the seventh day of exhibitions, Niragi sorta talks on this topic.

I also note that he follows the line with "You're lucky you're on the side of the populace." I think that Niragi is heavily referencing his differences with other people in this scene. It's possible that he may be referring to the fact that if everyone was like him, they would all be victims, making Arisu the perpetrator. It's also possible that he's referring to the fact that he doesn't believe in kindness (especially not kindness at heart) but realizes that there really isn't anyone like him as Arisu and his gang showed him kindness despite what Niragi put them through. There are a lot of different theories for this and they all seem to point towards Niragi feeling something deeply wrong with him, not his actions, but him as a person. CONCLUSION Niragi wasn't meant to be just a villain. He isn't just meant to be the guy you dread every time you see him on the screen. He's meant to represent what happens when someone is dehumanized. With each baseball strike, the more he was reduced to scum. Trash. By the time he was grown up he had known no empathy nor experienced it, given or received. In the universe of Alice in Borderland, whether you humiliated him or ignored him, Niragi is the villain, sure. But if there were 7 billion of him, the evil one would be you.

Still don't get it?? Compare Niragi to "Pigs" by Tyler, the Creator. Very similar concept.

Well that's time, see you next week :) [Or not] Feel free to leave suggestions !

yall sorry i havent been posting i lowkey started working on a new group of ocs that i have and im trying to make as much about them as i can before the motivation goes away. i am still going to continue making fics and posting the content will just be less frequent now :3

so like... who wanna give me some asks..

sorry ive been gone for so long lol

ove been gone a while and it will probably be an even longer while. it turns out liking people when u have axnious attachment is REALLY bad and now i spend most of my evenings practicing piano or etching his name into a red candle and praying over it like my life depends on it i also recently discovered good weed as after my terrible experience of snooping through the freezer for my dads homemade shit during an anxiety attack scarred me. that strawberry shem hit MAD dawg omg i was metling away lolololololol maybe ill write smthn abt it. everything always turns into smthn i write bc i refuse to get hurt for nothing. all damage is good in my hands bc sometimes the assault is good and sometimes the insane urge to high is good and sometimes the abuse is good and sometimes the irrestable eye gleam that boy gives me at our concert as if he didnt js blck me is good bc i can turn it into art. and speaking of art center marimba got butt dumped on me so now im losing even more freedom from pressure in my arts and i wont even have my big brother there to help me throhg it bc hes gradiating. and big sister cam is graduating and jammy is go bue bye aghhhhhhh its all so sad yk sometimes i like purposelu let myself get hurt or i pirposelu hurt myself emotionally so i can write better. my best work comes when im sad bc i can onlu write sad things well bc how the fuck am i suppsied to write abt sunshine and rainbows and loving relationships when my ever so shitty eyesight is blacking out so everything looks dark and the only rainbows i see are when im saying i hate fags as i write poetry abt my unreauited love for this boy abd theres no loving relationshios cb the last relationship i got FUCKED but its ok bc the dmaga eis good gys i am making art from ut u already saw the shit i did back in february i write ffrom experience so my work is accurate. terribke things arent visualized in my work they are experuenced and thrown onto the page like it will be my last. ad then ppl tell mei should get hep and i should go ti the pyschward like hahaha so funny even if i wanted to i couldnt bc my parents dgaf im literally js a kid. im co28 i should be worring abt like my grades (whch i do) and like playinf valorant or whatever teen boys do. but nof this is mu life but eah my bad for being gone gangalang see yall idk when i js wanted to update my life everythign is great

are parents js not parenting correctly anymore cuz tell me why i saw so many 8-9 year olds at the tyler concert dude when i was their age i would get my ass whooped for listening to a song w the word shit in it. how are they allowed to go to a tyler concert where a majority of the songs were abt sex :sob: HE PLAYED TRON CAT. AND TAMALE. AND STICKY OFC. AND JUDGE JUDY + gave a whole speech on safe sex. YALL NEED TO TAKE BETTER CARE OF YOUR KIDS...

so down bad i started writing a short story about the longing and despair that comes with being in love w a straight man

ladies, ladies, one at a time.. //o_o//

thank you guys so much for all the attention ive been receiving on my work !! you guys are truly the best, all your kind words and your MANY kudos motivate me to keep working and try my hardest for all of you <3 i am forever grateful for all you ! UPDATES : i may be posting something for a more underground fandom that is NOT alice in borderland so if you'd be interested in reading different fandom work, check out bittersweet (AJ's poorly explained oc lore) on tiktok and let me know if you guys would read work related to them :)