I Hate That There’s A Stranger That Walks Around With My Secrets.

I wish I wasn’t stupid.

I can’t do math, my writing is shit, I can’t pay attention, I can’t sing, I can’t dance, I’m not confident, I’m not pretty.

I’m watching all my friends get ahead of me. They excel in all their subjects so easily. I’m struggling to get passing grades.

I know I’m smart, I just wish I wasn’t the only one aware.

I’m smart enough to understand the look they give me when I ask stupid questions. I’m smart enough to understand why they act like they don’t know me in the hallways.

I just wish I had something to show for myself so I wouldn’t be so overlooked. I just wish I wasn’t stupid enough to believe everyone that doubts me.

I just wish I wasn’t so so stupid.

I think the human experience is the constant struggle to be perfect, yet none of us are. None of us never will be.

I carry the weight of my parents mistakes.

It’s so heavy, I just want to make you proud.

You look at me and I feel the sun tracing my lips. You’re selfless and kind. Everything you say holds meaning. You love me and you make me feel loved. So many bad experiences led me to you and every experience was worth it to be able to hold you and love you to the best of my ability. I love you.

Itching to be understood, but craving to runaway without a trace

Yeah, I did want more.

I gave you my whole identity, my life, my time, my trust, my innocence.

I wrote poems, burned cds, took you around the world.

I wanted more from you. I wanted all of you.

“I’m not a violent dog, I don’t know why I bite” I AM GOING TO RIP MY FACE OFF.

My love is faithful. If I love you now, I’ll love you forever.

Mother, the growing pains are unbearable. Give me the past 5 years back. Let me feel the sand on my feet again. Let me crawl into your arms and sink into your skin. When will the sound of my own name be familiar again? When will I be a kid again?

It hurts but the pain reminds me I’m alive!!! What is the point of life if you’re not loving and growing!!! I feel so alive and it’s so beautiful!!!