i know that you’re not wasting time stuck in an endless cycle. i know you clawed your way out.
i will continue screaming at the sky until it can match the rage coursing through my veins.
you can just talk and i’ll listen to you for years.
i never knew the concept of forgiveness would be so hard to grasp. but now i know that i can hold a grudge like a child. and in that melodrama i am proud.
i stopped pretending you were mine today. or that you ever were.
i do believe it would have been easier to have you ripped from me. because you’re still here, but i’m watching you undo the threads at a snails pace.
i saw an entire life with you as soon as we met.
they can keep their guys, because him. he’s mine.
i yearn for destruction of myself.
i only write to distract my self from my own self-destructive behavior.