i yearn for destruction of myself.
this summer’s haze feels like lifetimes ago. i was happy and tanned, eating raspberries by the river with my friends. i want her back.
my worst nightmare is being stuck in this terribly boring town doing something mediocre.
march’s last day feels far too unsettling. like the end of an era. the end of you.
i took a deep breath for the first time in weeks today.
you told me i was cruel. all i said was that you were the loss of my life. why would i lie to you? i don’t think i am capable of it.
my life is tied to your in the strongest of knots. no terrors could unravel us. you are too tangled into the depth of my soul.
they can keep their guys, because him. he’s mine.
i am only consumed with my sadness when i am alone. this week my schedule is filled to the brim to avoid mere minutes alone with my mind.
you’re a melody
that is ingrained in
my head
but i cant quite remember
how the last part goes