i never knew the concept of forgiveness would be so hard to grasp. but now i know that i can hold a grudge like a child. and in that melodrama i am proud.
i love my brothers. it doesn’t matter that we come from different parents. they would give up anything to be there for me.
everything is green again. like the earth is taking its first deep breath since the winter.
i taste you, on my tongue. i taste us, on my tongue. i taste tragedy, on my tongue.
my grief chases me. like a hunter and his very favorite prey. brutal, persistent, ruthless.
i love you calmly, peacefully, and fully.
just a reminder: the mistress, the husband, and the wife all believed they had found their true love.
i scream. i scream so loud. i scream so that my ears are ringing and my jaw hurts. i scream so that tears well up in my sad eyes. i scream my life away. for no one to hear a thing.
someone asked me today if i had ever been in love. i shook my head no because what we had can’t fit under one four letter word.
i barely survived being everything but your lover.