as i watched my best friend hug her boyfriend today, i saw new love floating in her eyes.
i’ve sworn for years we’re connected. because every time you come i can sense it. see it in the dark, hear it a million miles away. not only love swirls between us; raw want drags us back together over and over again.
all that changed this year was my temper. i am now always terribly angry.
am i giving my life away to a dream that may never happen?
i will be screaming until i can no longer make sound.
if you hurt me, i’ll walk away as easy as i walked in.
yesterday i read the notes on a life
that had just barely counted as one lived
the girl was far too tainted to be a wife
but she was a girl with much love to give
she talked like a true contrarian
eternally antithetical girl
then her opinions flew with the herons
to a much kinder and comforting world
with time her smile faded into the gray
and she went aimlessly through the motions
she joined other wretched souls yesterday
her eulogy murmured by the ocean
i suppose she always hung by a thread
i would’ve hung onto each word she said
i will close your door but i refuse to lock it.