i love you calmly, peacefully, and fully.
i took a deep breath for the first time in weeks today.
the bed groans under you weight as you slip in bed. warning me that it’s not just me, but that you smell like another woman.
my grief chases me. like a hunter and his very favorite prey. brutal, persistent, ruthless.
no one has ever told me how similar grief is to falling in love. a numbness so absolute i can’t tell if i’m at the highest high or the lowest low.
believe it or not, i am still very much in love with you.
i can feel myself falling. and i have never ever been happier.
i’ll pray to every god, wish on every star, and do all the right things for you to live through the night.