my grief chases me. like a hunter and his very favorite prey. brutal, persistent, ruthless.
IM ALIVE. IM ALIVE SO TODAY I ACTED LIKE IT.
if the hunger games were real, i would’ve eaten those berries without you. i would’ve let you win.
i love you calmly, peacefully, and fully.
if i showed you all my dark, im afraid you’d never be able to see my light again.
i scream. i scream so loud. i scream so that my ears are ringing and my jaw hurts. i scream so that tears well up in my sad eyes. i scream my life away. for no one to hear a thing.
i long to be simple minded.
i am not crazy. i am not crazy. i am not crazy. i am not crazy. i am not crazy. i am not crazy. i am not crazy. i am not crazy. i am not crazy. i am not crazy.
even though we are not in love anymore, your mere presence puts me at ease. your body being in my vicinity calms my restless mind.
you can just talk and i’ll listen to you for years.