And I Hope By Posting It People Will Understand That I Will Not Be What They Want Me To Be - Blog Posts

And the world will crucify me for being the man I wish to be.

They see a child lost in the war of the world

They see a monster destroying the body of a beautiful little girl.

I'm not 7 anymore.

And I've always known what I am

I'm a man, forced to grow up in a life others made me live.

And I will always be a man.

You can rip the skin from my body, and strip me of my bones

But I'll always know

You can suffocate me and cover my mouth as I scream out

But I'll always know.

And you'll always know, what I am.

You can fight me every step of the way, but I'm still a man

Your words mean nothing to me.

If they bury me in a grave with a headstone of the little girl they think I am.

I'll claw my way out of the wood and soil

I'm not a little girl

I was never a girl

I'm not 7 anymore

I'm not 12

I'm not 15

Im me

And I'll always be me.

And I'm a man.

I will cry until I can't anymore

And when they try to drown me in my own tears

I'll kick and scream

I refuse to go silently the way they want me to

I'm a man

And I will never be the little girl they wanted.